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2010-12-05T20:57:00.002+08:00

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real personalities

2010-04-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

"How could people like those have friends" I thought furiously when i saw them treating other ppl like rubbish,saying thoughtless hurtful comments,lying like their life depended on it and just doing things to their "friends" that I just can't accept....and the worse part is their "friends" just took it all in and just treated it like part and parcel of life....what has the world come to...

Am i just to narrow minded...do i not see the good but only look at the bad???but...but How could their friends just take the insults???just laugh at all the hurtful jokes pointed at them in public...just be used and than thrown out...just to be constanly look down at and just smile and say 'its nothing,i'm used to it'...it just does not make any sense...

Maybe they see good things in those assholes that they stay friends with them and just take it all in...but,how can they just 'tahan'...
i can never find myself even being 'superficial friends' with those jerks...i'll never throw out my dignity JUST to be friends with them ...i mean...is that what FRIENDS are???

why why why......feeling disgusted...urghhhhhsss~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

explosive~~~

2010-02-22T18:42:00.003+08:00

urghss....EMO-ing now...
I can't tell what made me so emo
i mean everything is going fine,no sad events,no stress YET,no problems...
than why d emoness now...

For some weird strange bizzare out of this world reason...
i burst into tears when i was talking to the nurses in my uni...coz they didnt allow me to go to this one class...
i mean its not like a SAD case...in the past IF i could not attend than nevermind lar...i mean the class is not THAT important that i will DIE if i didn't attend...
but weird thing is i started breaking down...and now ALL the nurses know me as that girl who cried becoz of some tiny problem....aiks
damn paiseh man...

but seriously....why did i tear up
why did i whimper on such small matter...
my heart hurt,i was sad...but i can't think of any reason why??
was i sad i could not attend the class? NO i was NOT...at ALL
was i sad coz i was told off by the nurse? NO i was NOT...i don't break down so easily
was i sad of some past events that i suddenly remember during that moment? Maybe...but i don't remember what was it...so...why why why!!!!

I'm seriously freaking out...
i cried...for no apparent reason...AT ALL
am i ok...what's wrong with me...

really hope no one remembers me as that crying girl when i meet the nurse again>.<
weird~~~~~

It's time to be....

2010-01-30T21:07:00.002+08:00

Well,Its been a great semester ...had lots of fun and been keeping myself busy...
BUT, I seriously must start studying like mad now...since my exam is only a month away...I've been slacking off way too much...eventhough I told myself I must work my ass off this year...urgh...

This sem is said to be the MOST important sem for students who are twinnig to Partner Medical Schools(PMS)...like me.
Because our Sem 3 results will be used to Rank us...and than this will decide if the Universities we chose will choose us...by our ranking...
With that said...its like my future will be decided through this semester...*stressing*

I heard the worst Semester for us was Semester 2...which to me was a wake up call last year...
I broke down,i paniced,i cried,i burned out and almost had a heart attack preparing for my Sem 2 exams...It was the WORST experience I ever had...feeling so unprepared,so vulnerable, so stupid...felt like CRAP!!!
But thank God that i survived last year...really really thankful...

But...i feel the worst Semester will be this Sem...which is Sem 3...Because it's one of the LONGEST sem out of the 5 semesters...
it is 6 months long...with only a one week break for Chinese New Year...and we need to learn about 4 Systems (Cardio,Respi,Heamato,GI)...
We will have 2 summatives ,One after every 2 systems...than in July,we will have our End of Semester(EOS) exam...which is....going to be like hell...for 2 weeks long...

Well,no matter what,I will NOT NOT NOT NOT stress myself out EVER again before ANY of the exams...
NEVER AGAIN I want to BREAK DOWN and feel like crap just hours before any of the exams...

Anyways...I am actually enjoying this sem...
and am SOOO happy that I chose Medicine...and AM not regretting it *like last year*...
Medicine is really something amazing...eventhough its a LONG and HARD journey...but its all worth it...i mean,i LOVE it>.<

no matter what,I will fight until the end~~~
happy CNY!!!!!!!!!

Busy Weeks ahead.....LOOK OUT!!!

2010-01-19T20:28:00.002+08:00

I"M SO TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!

well,wat i did this pass week or so???

last wednesday woke up at 5am...went to IMU 7am...went to MANTIN clinic at 8.30am...did history taking and looked around the clinic...came back to uni at 12.30pm...had class till 4pm.....reached home at 6pm....

last friday stayed at friend's apartment...had class till 4pm...went Carrefour shopping for dinner goods...had lambchop and mashpotatoes....*yumyum*...watched movie till 1am...slept at 2am...
woke up at 5.30am on Satuday ...went to IMU at 6am...took bus to JINJANG clinic and reached at 8am to help out d Health Screening there...did Health promotion,took patients blood glucose while wearing thick lab coat....sweated like a pig,and sooo tired and HOT!!!!!(coz there were barely any fans in the clinic and i was mostly outside under the hot sun)...came back home at 4pm....went to IKEA with family...came back at 9pm......man....TIRING

man...to tired lar...can't study coz so tired....sigh
this week is going 2 be busy too...pray for me PLEASE

tata~~~~

ohyeah...back to reality

2010-01-11T18:41:00.004+08:00

Its been a week since class started...and so far...its tiring...
doing Cardiovascular System now....and its super complex...like OMG complex
and this is just ONE system...i need to get through more than 6 systems by nxt year wei...sighs..
but all in all,its quite fun really....at least this is more intresting than foundation year...

Had my 1st Clinical Skills for Sem3 today...and it was scary...
the Doctor incharged of my group was one of the most strict and demanding one I EVER had...
and it was REALLY scary...
questions after questions after questions...
and all of us had SOOO many akward silence bcoz we didn't know how to answer...
She even said our group was the WORSE group she ever met....plus she looked kinda pissed off....

man...i was really afraid of the Dr...but in a weird way i liked her too...
She asked really relevant questions....so I'm learning ALOT from her
plus she gave me a reality check....
making me realize being a Doctor is NOOO funny bussiness...and we are expected to know EVERYTHING...eventhough we WON"T be tested on in NOW...but somewhere in the future...we WILL surely use it...otherwise how are we going tho help patients if we do not know everything rite...
So...more studying for me...
i HATED feeling SOOOO Stupid and silent during that WHOLE session...urghs...

Wednesday will be going to a clinic in Negeri Sembilan and on Saturday going to help out at Jinjang Clinic for health screening and stuff...really excited!!!going to learn lots of stuff and meet diff ppl there>.<

Well...i'm so tired...but what the heck....its Fun too...but so tired...*zzzZZzZz...*
hopefully i'll still live through this week.....cheers!!!!

~I always love looking at the orange stained sky during Dusk,its so warm,so mesmerizing and it reminds me how beautiful everyday Ends...no matter how bad a day u have...Life is AWESOME man!!!!!!!~

Start anew...

2010-01-03T16:47:00.003+08:00

Yet again...another year has come and gone...
urgh...that means Im going to be 20 yrs old....ewwww!!!NO!!!!!!!

well,today is the last day of my one and a half month long holiday...
and its really really sad......
not that I'm not looking forward to class...
its that this Semester is one LONGGGGGGGGGGGG semester...
urgh...8 months long...and I'm really scared of it....shivers....

anyways...what have I been up to this holiday???
well, ALOT actually
1)went to london and manchester...dropby blackburn to visit my bro and had great fun and LOTS of shopping...muahaha...i wanna migrate d!!!haha

2)met up with old pals...did lots of stuff together...singing,movies,skating,excessive photo taking,sleepovers,countdowns,eating,eating,eating and chattinggggg...

3)lots of sleep,tv,computer,shows,movies,shopping...ME time overload!!!!

4)and LOTS more...

And what I regret NOT doing during holidays??

1)losing weight....(like duh...how could I...its the holidays)

2)studying...(ummm...ya...about that)

3)reading a goooood book (I started 3 books...and never finish any of those...aiks)

4)going on more trips....

well,classes starts tomorrow, and its time to restart my brain again...have NOT been using it AT ALL this holiday..muahahha...

oh ya...my holiday highlights>>>

@4th-12th Dec-->UK trip
@14th Dec-->my BDAY!!!celebrated with friends at Aeon in the afternoon,went out with family for dinner in Pyramid
@24th,25th Dec--->eat eat eat munch munch munch
@31st Dec~1st Jan---> dinner with family,countdown at friends house(grilled stingray and yummy crabs!!!),stayover,breakfast,movie...

and LOTS of other stuff....my oh my...i was so up to date with watching movies during the holidays....muahaha

c u yall!!!!

switch gears....holiday time >_< V

2009-11-23T00:25:00.002+08:00

woohooo...its now time for a month and a half holiday!!!
thank God i pass my sem 2~~~

well,this pass 2 months was the hardest,and most stressful 2 months i ever had...
now i know the real meaning of...STRESS
summative was in late Oct...while EOS(end of semester) was on the 10th of nov...
The studying part was fine with me...i mean,at least its intresting...
but it was the insecurity part that scares me...

Its like no matter how hard or how much you study...you can NEVER feel prepared...
when i try to recall what i had studied...its like BLANK...
i mean,we needed to like study a year's worth of info=700+pages=4000+slides=2 huge files...
it was an AWFUL AWFUL felling...i NEVER in my life once felt SOOO unready for an exam...
and it scared the living crap out of me...

the nite before the exam...i only got an hours worth of sleep...why?
nope,i wasn't staying up late to study...
but I COULD NOT SLEEP!!!
i ACTUALLY had tachycardia during the WHOLE night...and my mind was continuosly revising what i had NOT study....
my body was so restless...and my eyes can't help but to stay open...

The morning of my exam...i had a panic attack...
coz i drew a blank when i was revising back my notes...
I could not remember the horribly difficult names of autocoids and antimicrobial drugs...
i could not remember the anatomy of almost all the organs
i could not recall anything....
MAN ohhhh MAN....thats the crapiest feeling EVER
I felt freaking stupid
and i kept on thinking that i WILL fail...FOR SURE!!!
urgh...thank God i cooled down before entering the exam hall...
if not i swear i would blank out and faint when i see the questions...

SO...
i SWEAR i'm NOT going to put myself through that again...
that horrid feeling...ewww...
must be truely prepared in Sem 3...hopefully...

Well...thank GOD,thank GOD,thank GOD I pass!!!!
i only got an OK-ish results...but this is only sem2 rite
i still got lots of semesters left to really get use to the exam style and score!!!!

Anyways..its holiday!!!wooohooo
time to catch up on sleep
and spent time that was lost with friends,family...and even myself...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!
*snores~~~*

lost

2009-10-26T11:57:00.001+08:00

I hava lost it
something dear to me
where are you...

feelings?

2009-09-15T21:18:00.002+08:00

I'm suddenly feeling down
don know whats the reason...

just when i got home from uni,all the negative stupid thoughts kept flooding my head...
things like:
*ur not good enough
*ur freakin stupid
*ur not needed
*what's ur purpose
and
*u took the wrong path!!!

Suddenly this kinda EMO ,down thoughts kept haunting me the whole day
i guess its because exam is nearing
and there is SOOOO much more to study...but i'm not studying
i got SOOO many more other activities to do....and yet i'm not studying

I know this is the path i want to take
I NEVER regreted choosing this path...I mean i LOVE it,i ENJOY it...i WANT it
but sometimes I feel that i'm not good enough, or even worthy enough...to be what i want to be
i keep asking myself
*are u even SMART enough?
*are u even SOCIABLE enough?
*are u even SERIOUS enough?
*are u even WORTHY enough to be saving other ppl?????

I'm suddenly confused...suddenly powerless
like i can't even control where I'm heading anymore

maybe its because of stress..or doubt in my own stregth...
but i have faith...and that is all i need now...i guess

I want to be strong...
because this is only the beginning of my new life chapter...
and i can't be falling apart NOW!!!
i CAN"T afford that MAN!!!!

just...
wait and see what happens

hopefully the EMO switch will be turned off soon...*click*

Cravings>.<

2009-09-05T20:51:00.002+08:00

I suddenly have cravings for:
*Mcdonald's french fries
*Baskin's green tea ice cream
*Kebab
*and maybe some Shandy~~~

and i wanna go see the sunset on a windy day....*so random*

Sometimes...if only...

2009-08-23T17:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes...i wish i was
more braver...
...more smarter...more better
...more worthy...

Sometimes i question myself...
what am I doing here...am I worthy enough?
Can i handle it?am i good enough...

Looking around me
Everyone is so intimidating
so much more stronger, wiser, better...

~~~~~

Yes, my life is so bless...
I am so so so happy that God had always given me strength when i needed it
and
providing me with love and comfort when I wanted to give up...

but...i guess its because I'm so caught up with my busy life
then I started to stray away....even in church, during CFs...I feel...empty...
my brain keeps on replaying on the schedule i should accomplish for tat day...
I now don't even pray everyday...which is just really sad and ungrateful...

Just came across a christian song on one of my friend's blog that made me thinking...
what am i doing with my life now...
yes its all fun and fulfilling...but somehow its not 'complete'...
somehow it makes me think...am i doing enough...
and theres all this
regret...doubt...
not feeling good enough thought...
constantly running through my mind

BUT

I must get up and run again
no self-pityness...no more 'oh i'm too busy' excuse anymore...
yes,i must get back in the race
just trust and have faith again
don't be destracted and stop by what flashes pass you
don't look behind to see if you are good enough
Just face the front...and do your best...
Don't compare...or feel not good enough
just
enjoy the brief but beautiful sceneries flashes pass you....
the cool breeze...
the tiggling sensation of the sun's heat...
yes...have Faith....I miss that feeling...

This is not only the path I have chosen...but also the path I AM suppose to take
no matter what
......i just got to get back in the race
no more distractions.......

GOT IT SHARON!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be back BABY!!!!

2009-08-22T09:31:00.006+08:00

ughhh....just looking at my timetable for the next 2 weeks scares me....
anyhow~~~
it's my life update time!!!woohooo...*claps* *claps*

So ya...i think it has been 2-3 weeks since i last saw my high school buddies...or even phone them up to chit chat...
I guess all of us are busy with our own uni lifes, and even to plan a date to go out and "play play" is really difficult....haiz
hopefully all of them are used to their uni lifes....healthy and enjoying their new chapter of their lives....
i guess i can only meet up with them after my summative...which is in around 7 weeks time....*faints and rolls*

and yes...I'll would now like to dedicate this section of my blog to my dear FRIEND for almost 10 years~~~~~~ATHENA HAH>.<

WE pretending to be enjoying hwee's girl novels

She is going to 'FLY' to america soon...damn you girl,why fly so far away...ahha,anyhow hope ur butt can handle the almost 16 hours flight...I'm REALLY sure you will feel like dying or jumping off the airplane after around 12hours seating on the cramp seat,ur legs will start to get numb...then ur skin will start feeling dry...and ya,it will be GREAT fun girl!!!!

anyhow...
we were in the same primary 2 class till primary 6...
but i got to be great friends with her around primary 5...
after that we went to the same high school BUT was in diffrent classes for form 1-3
but we still ate lunch together almost EVERYDAY...
and on the plus side, we were 'geng' enough to be in the same ENGLISH class together...hohoho
then form 4-5 we were in the same class again>.<
and almost every class trip we also go together>.<
and ya,tats our very brief history of our friendship...
too bad i ditch the idea of continueing on with form 6 in our high school and ran to taylors to do my pre-U...
thus decreasing the time we could be CRAZY together

and----

She is funny, kind ,loud, crazy, a bit perveted, outspoken, strong, caring and most importantly stands up for all her friends>.<
A really great happy outgoing person to be with>.<
and I'm really lucky to have the previlage to call her my GOOOOOD friend...
and thankful that she has always been there for me all this while
10 years of friendship seems long rite
but to me its really short...hopefully we can go as long as 50,60 years of friendship...

haha,so all and all
i really will miss her ne>.<
can't listen to her lame jokes
and can't hear her super loud laugh...
and yes her stupid questions>.< which is kinda like lame jokes to me

well girl,hope u find a SUPER handsome tall ,dark ,blue eye ,american there
hohohoho...and bring him back to malaysia for me to judge if he's GENG enough>.<
and keep in touch nia!!!!
don't ignore me just because u are busy scanning for hot guys there OK!!!

conclusion>>LOVE YOU and GOOD LUCK....MUAKS

...................................................
ok,moving on from sad farewells of good friends...which is really really heartbreaking,
now its time for some fun stuff happening in IMU>.<
like..........M209 ORIENTATION!!!!!!!!!!!!

seriously i have NO idea why i'm so happy about it
i'm just and OO(orientation officer) who will also get ragged by the seniors...and sometimes get ragged WORSE than the juniors...

you see the OOs in black shirts!!!!they kenal more then us wei!!!

and yes ,orientation is a dirty and serious bussiness....and being soaking wet and sweaty is the easy part....

but i guess its and excuse to have fun and go SUPER SUPER crazy and do stupid stuff again.....hohoho
oh, and i heard some of my high school guys are coming in to this batch>.<
not really sure who they are....but at last!!!someone from my high school!!!

BUT...coz of this orientation....its going to be CRAZY for the next two weeks...
not only i have orientation...
i also have:
1}First aid training
2)Wellness
3)CLASSES---->which i'm falling behind on>.<
4)CSUs
5)Choir Practise
6)PBLs...ok find,this is not that bad
7)some other random but time consuming things to do
...oh ya...theres also the book fair that i wanna go to...sigh

sigh......what ever lar
I don care!!!!i'm going to GET through THIS!!!!
fun fun fun then study study study then burn burn burn....

So ya...i guess i will only get back to bloggin after my summative...
really really really sad man...poor blog blog
going to get ignored by me=_=

well...
good luck to
*all my friends who are flying to taiwan or US for their
studies..
*all my batchmates who are studying their ass offs to pass SEM2..(which has the MOST students FAILING and WITHDRAWING from the course )and the seniors too who have exams soon
*all my friends who are in UNIs
and.......ya....* all the juniors, good luck in ur orientation neh >.< don get freak out and u all must come YA!!!!!!

TAKE CARE
and see you all soon...
hopefully i'll still be 'myself' in 7 weeks time...summative and EOS....swt

Life.........

2009-08-15T21:58:00.002+08:00

Semester 2 started
more workload
more activities
more stress....

but at least my class now starts at 10.30am
and not 8am like last time....
needed to crawl out of bed...haiz

so tired now
just got back from the debate competition in IMU
its the 1st ever inter private uni competition
and 14 unis join...including sunway monash taylors ect
quite intresting really...helped out and stayed back from 7am to 7pm....
tiring but quite happy to have seen such great debates...
been awhile since i seen a debate lo,and really intresting ones.....

well,i'm falling behind my studies
so lazy to start revising on viruses and bacterias....swt....sounds REAL intresting rite?
Next week there will be lots more of activities...

then later on the juniors will be coming in
I'm SOOO looking forward to their orientation since i can play with them in the orientation again....wooohooo

wellll...so need sleep rite now
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzz

EXAM OVER

2009-06-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

i NEVER felt soooo happy lar
exam is over
wooohoooo...studied SO much for 50MCQ for an exam for only an hour plus...
but whatever....i have my one month holiday now!!!wooohooo

today went out with athena and mia
watched 17 again...not bad show,funny and has a hot guy like zac
but OMG...i can't take those bunch of galz sitting behind us...
whenever zac efron comes on screen...
they will be like....kecak nia...handsome...and then a semi silent fangirl scream...
like WAT THE HELL!!!so annoying man....but at the same time funny as hell...

well,athena...my bestie fren for almost 12 years....is going overseas soon...cries...my god time flies soooo fast la...
come to think of it...i have so many frens going off somewhere else...and its really hard to catch hold of them coz of time and distance...

Was looking through my high school photos just now
and it was REALLLLY heartbreaking to see those photos...
i miss those dayz SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much lar
really feel like crying lar

I mean all those time goofing off...playing around....it was SOOO Eazy
we knew everyone...during lunch break we didn't need to like care who to eat with...coz we eat with everyone...
sitting in class???who ever ,take ur pick....
my god....compared to dayz after high school...those times were like a dream...

what the heck!!!!self pitying again...haha

well,IMU life is fun too
but stressful and sometimes....hard
harsh reality i guess
sometimes i feel SOOO lonely..but that is SOMETIMES
overall its fun

so excited....goin holidaying and i'm going to degrade at home...muahaha
genting with the girls
cameron with the family
------wooohoooo

exam madness

2009-06-19T18:40:00.002+08:00

one more week
to finish almost more than 50 notes
to memorize a years worth of information(which we learnt withing 5 months by the way)

the clock is ticking
and i'm panic-ing
AHHHHHHH

nxt monday Behavior Science Exam somemore
iayyyyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaa
stupid Med School

HELP MEEEEE!!!!!!!

Let it...

2009-06-07T17:35:00.002+08:00

*Let it pour out
Let it take you over
Give me a call
Just shout it out
tats wat i'm waiting for*
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

exam is coming so so soon
been studying...and at the same time forgeting
how i wish i have a photographic memory..or even just a strong short term memory...
really really stressed out
when i look around, all of them are so darn lucky to have a good memory
and me...oh well,try luck in med school maybe??

Sometimes i wonder if i would ever make it to the finish line
i mean i was NEVER the brightest bulb in the batch EVER
and amazingly i'm here...studying something that i ruled out of 'what i'm going to be when i grow up' category years ago...
because i always thought i'm not good enough...

i rather span my time 'blank minded' than to pick up a book and study...
i rather keep my mouth shut and figure things out and PRETEND that i understand than to just raise my hand and ask WHY...
strange....why am i here again

Yesterday while i was listening to the radio
This freakin sad chinese song came up
and the lyrics was similar to what i'm feeling now
lost,down,useless,not good enough, and sometimes lonely
urgh....made me feel so sad and emo after that

well,whatever....i guess i have to manage
I know what i have chosen is right....
I just got to look at the bright side ...and belive in my self more

2more weeks till exam...really really hope to get an A...at least that will make me feel 'good enough' to be here...

on the brighter side
~going to a piano concert nxt week>.<
~after exam there will be one month break
~going to be a 'senior' soon
~going genting during NON school holiday period!!!!!wooohooo...

相信，努力，追求

Breaking Boundaries

2009-05-20T19:47:00.003+08:00

When was the last time I had this feeling
where i found that I'm alone again
when only shadows follow and blocks out the light
when only sadness breaths in me and leaves me breathless

Once again I'm back to where I started
It's only me and my withering confidence
Once again It's only emptiness and sadness
But in the end, I'll just say...

Breaking Boundaries
That's what we are living for
That's what keeps us moving on
fighting through our deepest enemies
Break those boundaries

Words might shatter you
Lies might weaken you
Where douth and fear will make you weary
But don't give up and just look around
Your Breaking Boundaries
~~~~~~~~~~~~

***EMO leh,,
yalo, can compose into song....
whatever lah, let me emo for awhile....
ok emo over....
lalala

holiday over-ing already ARRRR~~~~~

2009-05-08T20:17:00.002+08:00

yep,why does time fly by so fast larrr
my one week holiday almost over already
and damn, i didn't even catch up on any of my studies...
why ?
because human beings created youtube....crap!!!
spend my holidays finding funny videos, korean dramas, variety shows to see...
in the end my studying is a FAIL....i did study, but it didn't go according to what i plan....
WHAT THE HECK, enjoy myself for now,
coz after this break, the next break will be in July...
and btw now till July...its memorizing medical terms time....aiks!!!

sometimes i wonder why i chose medic...
yes the pay is good and yes i love science and i wanted to do something proud with my life...but sometimes it does bum me out
like comparing with other ppl
i know i should go with my own pace and channel out what other ppl do
but i mean ppl around me is freaking smart
they can contain SOOOO much information in their brain, and they can easily memorise things plus their understanding is like WOWOWIESSS~~~
but me...haha...me arr...my memory suck plus i lose focus really easily...

aiks!!!i'm self-pity-ing again....i guess its becoz of the HOOOOOOTTT weather...
MY GOD!!!its freakin hot nowadays....i swear i almost got heat stroke the other day while taking my afternoon nap...
and i get SOOOO sleepy and get headaches
damn you GLOBAL WARMING!!!!!!

well,holiday is almost over
and yet again is time to be serious
and yes, I really should start being serious
i chose my path and i really should start layering a strong foundation...
besides placing stupid self pity pressure on my own self...
everything is ok-ish
never regreted my medic dicision anyways
start studying man!!!better not play around too much

but for now, i guess i'll chill a tiny while longer...
wish me luck

If i could return back~~~

2009-04-25T12:15:00.003+08:00

What would happen if i could turn back time?
and go back to the blur old past
where stupid mistakes were made,
where blunt anger driven decisions were made,
where sadness and tears were 1st felt and shed...
~~~~
would I then make diffrent decisions
or avoid all those heartbreaking situations
or did something more worthwhile....

or

would i just let everything be the same
and experiece everything the exact same way as before??
~~~

Went meeting with ting ,mia and jasmine yesterday at Pyramid...
and seriously, where could you find any crazy ,38, ultra hyper girls like those...
lucky hwee didn't come, if she did the glass windows in the restaurant will shetter due to her high out of this world up -scale and down-scale laugh!!!!

And ya,I totally miss them...still sometimes think back of all those childish yet memorable stuff we did back in high school...
SOOOO want to turn back time to form 4 & 5~~~
it was the most laid back, crazy 2 years of my life
where i look forward to go to school everyday
and i would 'purposely' go to school early to chat with my classmates...
we even had our little own thursday bento day
where we would eat our bento in class together on that special day...

Seriously....why am i writing this again???
haha....
neh,just sometimes i wish that time didn't pass so fast....
or that humans would appriaciate every second of our life...

like college, i REALLY dreaded it....and lots of sad stuff happen that year
but when i think back now...
it was really quite enjoyable...met seriously retarded ppl...grrrr,
but at the same time...i met great ppl along the way...
had hilarious moments and made great memories~~~
it was actually a reallygreat year!!!
as for high school, I was like SUPER hype to go to college...so i wanted to leave high school as soon as possible..
so i don't need to wear uniforms or always tie my hair up...
but once i went to college...i miss my high school pals so so much
because it was so easy to interact with them...
we rarely had the ;akward; moments btw us...
we seriously will crap whatever comes to mind
and we 'bomb' each other like crazy and we rarely get mad with each other because of our straighforward-ness and harsh but always funny and true comments about each other...

Sad really,in a years time i'll be entering my twenties
darn...feel so old LEH!!!!

but,I'm quite satisfied at where i am now
Uni life is not bad...
at least i found some crazy funny nice friends to crap whatever i want with
so ya....its going fine for now
and I'm really trying to make my life as worthwhile as possible now
so that i won't regret it once i start working my ass off !!!

soooo...
to the 4 so's= don't forget what we said!!!we shall go to taiwan together soon,really hope its before me and ting(gambateh in ur uni,hopefully you'll find ur 38 group nia~~~happy happy lo!!!) go overseas la...fast fast nia~~~

to my high school buddies= GENTING trip next year ya..i don't care you all plan...let jasmine plan...muahahaha...

to my college buddies=don forget to meet up often lar...miss you guys nia

live,love and play
and don't forget to eat and study between those 3!!!!

my life & me nia~~~~~~~~

2009-04-17T17:22:00.002+08:00

oh....so tired
just woke up from sleep, and seriously i think i 被鬼压
scary neh, i could not get up,i could not open my eyes,i could not move
than got numbness all over my body,tried to scream but no sound....ahhh,scary..
nvm nvm....at least i'm awake now,hohoho

ok moving on...I'm fine i guess
'trying' to study but no motivation this days...
so didn't study for few days liao,sad man...i'm going to drown in my notes soon,
but no worries,i'm always the last minute kind,
so hopefully today WILL study la
or whatever la...

Yesterday really a hactic day...coz
i voluntered to help out at the blood donation drive..
it was conducted by the buthist club but i just went and help out my friends lo...
quite cool,1st time going to a blood donation drive,but i didn't donate la..
partly bcoz my parents doesn't allow...oh well...
everyone needs to donate about 450ml of blood = one packet= a mineral water bottle volume...
quite alot of blood lo really,but really a good deed...
The ppl here also really giving...
about 80 ppl per day donate ...claps claps claps!!!
than when d blood come out,really warm...haha
coz i went and kacao my fren and touch the blood bag...really cool!!!
quite fun ...

than after that i went for choir pract
damn, i was the only alto there
so went solo....but lucky got seniors come and sing with me
but fun too,singin really can relive stress ...

oh,today 5 members of LEO club commity(including me since i'm the membership director,but it was suppose to be the publicity director,but she could not make it) went to meet the SRC(student council) and discuss about forming LEO CLUB in IMU ...
and the way the meeting flowed...it should not be a problem !!!yah!!!happy nia~~~
This sunday we the LEO CLUB will hav our 1st ever activity,
which is Blind leading the Blind 3km walk in PJ...
hope it will be fun!!!

oh, and i heard from my friend that i was chosen to be the Tresurer for the Chinese Club Chinese Singing Competition Comittee...
they decided it today at the meeting,but i could not go...oh well.
Tresurer arr...scared later i lose the money leh,
but hopefully i'll do a good job!!!

So far my IMU life is fun
but I really really really need to start concentrating on my studies!!!
coz that is what i'm here for rite!!!!to be a good Doctor!!!

I miss my High School friends really...long time never see them le...
coz everyone is 'busy' ,all of our Uni and College class time varies
and they live in Klang somemore...aiyoyooyyo
Don't know what they look like now
hahaha....hopefully can meet up with them during my break...
MISS YOU GUYS!!!!

some of my Taylor college friends are studying here too
so at least can mee up with them from time to time
than in july 4 more college pals will be coming to IMU, and 2-3 high school friends too will be coming to IMU...
wooohoooo!!!!

ADD OIL ARRR!!!
study!!!
take care nia

>.<

I Murdered U...yep,IMU is going too

2009-04-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

IMU life arr
so far ok la...quite fun at times
but freakin tiring lo....
STILL haven't found my crap group yet
really sad actually...no comment

but on the bright side i met lots of ppl
and of coz got stress about it coz they are freakin smart...some of them lah i met...they glow the "smart ass" vibe...hahaha...

well, waiting for the one week holiday lo
but on the downside after the holiday is my exam
freakin scared
we studied so long for just a 50 MCQ question paper in an hour...my god
heard from the senior lots of ppl failed last time
and only really little ppl got A.....walao ehhh....

Studies so far ok gua
but my brain easily forgets things
so after a week all the info i learned will slowly 'sip' out from my brain
than forget d
walao, why my brain sooooooooo "smart" de...

no matter wat,
I'll try and live a meaningful uni life
so far i joined choir,first aid,AMSA(asean medical student association) and chinese cultural club (1st aid and AMSA not yet started yet....wah, if start i'll be freakin busy lo)
than now trying to make a new club
LEO CLUB
so hopefully will succeed in building up this club
so far only under 20 members
but slowly pull ppl in sure will grow ....
a job for me to do...

well,so far so good
hopefully i'll find my crap group soon
really miss craping lo
hohoho

GAMBATEH!!!!!!!

今天的明天，就是，明天的今天

2009-03-28T10:28:00.002+08:00

啊。。。好累啊！
哈哈，也许是我自己要求高高咯。。。（random nia~~~）
ANYWAY，大学生活还OK。。。可是还没找到我三八group。。。

每天真的好累，星期一和四都要7.30pm才能回家，因为有合唱练习。。。
其他天我都避自己留在图书馆读书。。。
可是不懂为何我读不下。。。真是的！！！
觉得好浪费时间啊！！！

这几天我心情还不错。。。
可是昨天我真的是不可忍受了。。。
算了吧，我放弃了，我不管了了啊！！！
我觉得还是自己高兴好了。。
不用去理，不用再假装了。。。
啦啦啦~~~真是的。。。给FACE一下啦。。。
ＷＡＬＡＯＥＨ～

ＯＫ，我冷静下来了。。。深呼吸。。。
还有什么能打呢？？
哦，这几天都好快过。。。蛮恐怖的咯。。
上星期我再到CHARITY HOME。。。
将快就一星期了。。。AIYOYOYOYOYOYO

IMU真的是没事做咯。。。
下星期要测我么几健康哦。。。
所以要被我们的SENIOR测血压，测做运动后的心跳。。。还有要看我们是否坐着时能动脚指等等。。。
啊！！！！所以下星期二要留到6PM给他们测爽咯。。。

希望不用给“他们”面子了。。。好累啊。。。

my brain getting uni treatment

2009-03-25T18:14:00.003+08:00

Frustrating?Confusing?Challenging?
neh...i won't say uni life is that...

Its been a month since my so called uni life started...
and so far its been ok-ish...i guess...

met a bunch of ppl, had my happy days, and of coz my emo days...
but in the end it boils down to.......i want change...
i hate being left out,being that oh so ********* one...
i guess its time to leave, and not put up that smiling face to ****,
coz seriously its a waste of energy and my time trying...
like DUH, i know its not meant to be, so why try so hard for
even in the beginning i knew its not meant to be...

so ya...my life now adays is
1)Try
2)Study
3)do new things
4)eat
5)sleep...

its been ok....but everyday ATLEAST need to put aside 2 hours for study...
why?coz i'm a slow slow slow learner
my brain is SOOOO rusty that i need to at least read over 3 times to get it stored in my memory....really sad actually...
plus my memory sucks....really easily forget things...
man, can i survive med school...sigh...
hopefully...

well,all i can say is LA LA LA...
hopefully tomorrow is a better day
and i don need to put up my fake smile for ****....aiks!!!
tatataaaaa

我们变了？？？

2009-03-19T17:33:00.002+08:00

I know..I'm going to be typing in chinese...haha
long time nia~~~~

在IMU已经有3个星期多了。。。每天生活的不错。。。
只是有时觉得点孤单。。。
因为是大学生啊。。。每个人都在忙各自的。。。
还有我还没找到我自己的三八GROUP。。。
BUT，还OK啦，因为我认识了好多人。。。
每天都很UNPLAN。。。都发生好多以前没体验过的事情。
所以还蛮新鲜！！！

昨天跟SO OILY 讲了有45分钟的电话。。。
真的好久没将久讲电话了。。。
讲啊讲啊。。。就讲到我们4 so‘s 的关系。。。
听了过后。。。真的觉得我好幸福可以成为4 so 之一。
BUT，我们就谈到我们的’姐妹关系‘。

*sorry,change to type english...lazy to type chinese le...*

I don't have any sisters
so i don know what a sisterly relationship is...
but i can only get a hint of it from hanging around with my girl besties...
and just like tat
i don regret not having any sisters...
coz i get enough of joy and fun and understanding just with them...

but as me and oily continue talking...it also got me thinking...
with the 4 of us not at the same place at the same time at MOST of the time...
how can we like hav a STRONG link with each other...
and keep the 4 so's spirit alive....

the answer:

I don know...and basicly i don' want to think tat much about it...

Because I think destiny brought us together,
and in the end...no matter how busy we are,we will surely still have that "bond" btw us...

but ya,we now rarely meet each other...and i admit i'm damn lazy....so i didn't like frequently call them up to check what they are up to...sad really

BUT no matter what, we are still friends...and eventhough our connection with each other does not look as GREAT or TIGHT as the other 'sister best friends'...it does not change the fact that we all care about each other and in some point has touch or even change each others lives
.....
...isn't that wat friends are?

well,I really hope that the 4 so's will keep the promise....to go on a trip together in the future....haha,imagine in the future that the 4 so's has become 4 mid-twenties ladies....and all still acting like crazy 38 ladies...haha

so,4 so's gambateh
and to my other besties(u know who u arreeeee!!!!!muaks~~~) who had always been beside me....i really hope the bond btw us will never change..and that later on we will still meet up and have great fun together...REMEMBER ARRR....

Time really goes by so fast.....really miss the old days lol...oh well...
so no matter what
DO YOUR BEST...and still keep in touch...
Love yall!!!!

Me and Myself + Jasmine's questions

2009-03-13T16:25:00.006+08:00

This few days i've been feeling down...emoish actually
Don't know why lah...
I guess its because of CHANGE???hahaha
nothing serious, maybe its because my yi ma wan visit me already??
but everything is OK
living my life as I want...
oh well, i guess being a TEEN(yes,i'm still a teen!!!),You'll feel this way sometimes...hope i'll get back to my normal self soon...

oh yeah
Ting Ting made this avatars of 4 so's???

This is suppose to be me...

The sun yan zhi lover?

And the evil do-er herself...

and of coz the shorty

after i saw this...i felt much better,made me smile too...
haha, thanks girlfriend

ok,so now moving on to
!!!!JASMINE's QUESTIONS!!!!

Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. Crazy stuff u did before.
I did lots of crazy stuff before...like burning anything thing i can get a hold on when i was little during CNY, or running in the rain for an hour just for the hack of it....and many other stuff than i don' want to tell u...MUAHAHHAAHHA!!!!!

2. What is your most favourite thing to do ?
Spending time with MYSELF...(i know,i'm like a selfish B!tCH),just kidding, i love just randomly gossipping with my friends & going on tours and trips with my family...I can't choose btw all this of wat is my MOST fav...

3. If you are given a chance to reverse your life,will you go back to the past ?
I REALLY wan to...i miss the days when studying was like secondary...and spending time with friends in school...doing childish things....sigh....I really want to be childish again...and not expected to be a GROWN UP and be responsible and MATURE...

4. What would u do if u were to die tomorrow ?
Go overseas(anywhere cold,like maybe Japan (hopefully its winter and not summer lol))and spent my journey eating eating and eating and shopping with my family and close buddies...

5. Is there someone in your heart right now ?
If in the case of LOVE...than NO....lonely me...haha
If in the case of Friends and family,than OF COZ!!!!

6. Do you feel loved in this world ?
Most of the time...but sometimes when i'm feeling sad or lonely, than of coz i'll feel the world is unfair...

7. What are you afraid to lose the most ?
People around me who makes me happy and supports me

8. What do you feel like doing right now ?
Eating Baskin Robbins ice cream and watching a GOOD movie

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her ?
Sadly no...i'm the shy kind who would not confess...and it would be SOOOO much more akward if the one i love does not accept me...so ya,just keep it to myself

10.Do you think you are special?
Well OF COURSE, who else is as crazy and random as ME!!!!!but everyone is special,there's no such thing as a NORMAL person...

11. What are the requirements that you not wish from your other half?
HUGE ego, Flirts, Lies, No respect and judge ppl on their looks

12. What do you think is your purpose in life?
To be someone who will change or touch others lives, thats why I want to become a doctor, eventhough lots of ppl say its tough and a hactic job...but if i could make someone feel better and in return make everyday of my life meaningful...and maybe totally change a person's life...than why not...plus its ressesion proof....muahahhaha

13. Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?
Nope...i'll try to channel EVILNESS out of my mind

14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
NO WAY!!!!!i'll die if that happens....but maybe....chocolates??

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Like DUH...Happiness of course...ever heard of the proverb 'money can't buy happiness??'...its like priceless

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
I want to be someone with more courage and confidents....I want to speak my mind and do what i want ...sadly i supress my feelings and thoughts sometimes...i'm scared to voice out and act.......I WAN TO CHANGE!!!!!!!!

17. What is the most prized possession that you wish you can bring to Heaven?
um....THE INTERNET!!!!! that way i can download shows and music from earth and enjoy it in heaven...plus i can msn and email my love ones on earth eventhough i'm in heaven...I SMART LEH...than can e-bay somemore....hahaha, and acess bank online to get money...

18. What memory that you cherish the most?
There is alot...but i guess just memories of times with friends and family....and memories like sceneries overseas where it really makes your heart beat....haha...there si TOOO many memories i cherish...coz all of them is equally important to me

19. What is your plan when you become an old man or old woman?
Hopefully i'm married with my soul mate and my kids are all grown up to become great people...and of coz have cute little grandchildren who cares for me...plus we will live in a nice little neighbourhood...friendly neighbours and great public stops...

20. Do u think ur Life is meaningful enough?
Totally,but i really really want to make it MORE meaningful....hopefully

Ok...so here is the 5 ppl i wanna TAG:
1)Hwee
2)Qian
3)jocin
4)Vivi
5)anyone really...there are so many ppl i wanna tag,but i know some of them will like ignore me...hahaha...so ya,feel free to play along

okie...take care>.<

When change comes?

2009-03-10T21:24:00.002+08:00

So ya as the title says
what is CHANGE exactly??

I've noticed that quite a handful of my good friends are in EMO mode now...
why ar why they so sad....they are suppose to be happy ppl leh!!!
SOOOOO not like them....
well, I guess its because they are going through that time again

the Time of CHANGE...

They are probably experiencing what i felt last time...
Loneliness, Frustration, Sadness and feeling Confused...
yes....sometimes CHANGE is a GOOD thing
but toooo much change at once is like ripping a bandage off at one go...
It HURTS!!!!but the pain only last for awhile...well,hopefully...

So ya...NOW is REALLY a time to change EVERYTHING about our lives...
Like not being in High School or College anymore where everywhere you look or go...Its always those few same friendly faces your used to...

Now its time...
Where you will be going to a few farewell parties...to say tata to good friends going overseas for their studies...

Where it is difficult to meet up with your good pals...because We'll all BUSY...

and many many more emo stuff where i'm too lazy too list down...later I myself get EMO....aiyoyoyoyoyo...DON WANT!!!!

So, to everyone who is experiencing change or is just going through a rough patch in your lives...
Take it easy and just let that idiot called CHANGE do whatever it wants...
I mean everyone experienced EMO EMO CHANGE at least once right...

Cheer Up
Stand Up
Get Up
SawadicUp
and Drink from a cUP!!!!(OMG, that was just lame!!!!)

Hopefully my down friends will get better soon
and don't forget
you might not be able to take control of the CHANGE surrounding you,
but YOU, yes YOU can Change to "compromise"(still remember this word from SAM chemistry.....sigh...) the CHANGE around you...
SO, POE(not Position of Equilibrium(SAM syllabus again)but Position of EMO-ness),
will shift FAR FAR away...
making less EMO, and MORE Happiness....*smiles*

CHEER UP!!!CHEER UP!!!CHEER UP!!!!
and yes, I hope me myself will live a Emo free life...

TAKE CARE

Surviving IMU orientation

2009-03-07T10:29:00.011+08:00

I'm now officially an ME1/09 Med student,
and like every junior that enters IMU,there is surely ORIENTATION...

Well,I read and heard stories about orientation in IMU(espeacially for MED),
that it is tough,dirty and sometimes humiliating...
But it was not that bad since IMU has band ALOT of things,
like cross-dressing,changing IMCC to IMSS and the stuff and ragging are all toned down...well,good news for me than!!!Muahhahahaha...

So it started of last week on the 23re of Feb...
All of the med and dental student had a white coat ceremony and photo session.
than on the next day,It was officially the start of orientation...

The theme this year for the oriention is BOOT CAMP:CAN YOU SURVIVE?
and it started off with the seniors showing us a video...
it was SOOOO Funny leh...
the story goes that a student was experimenting and made a zombie potion.
somehow the potion was "accidentally" let loose and the med students are affected and became zombies...
So ya,zombies...
the seniors even took the trouble to dress as soldiers and march into the auditorium to make it more dramatic.
they split us into 14 groups of 20 and gave us orders to SURVIVE this 2 weeks...

We than went into the PBL rooms to discuss among d group
Well it started all akward,we all barely knew each other so the discussion was really quite..
But thanks to the OOs(Orientation Officers,they are SOO helpful,they are seniors who play games with us and sometimes even "sacrifice" to be ragged for us...plus they are super friendly and gives us tips on studying in IMu)...We somehow came up with our group name and cheer.

Since we are group 8,so our group name is...
WE ARE STR8!!!

and the cheer is:
We are Gr8, Be AFR8
We will surely set things STR8
We are Gr8, Also STR8
With other genders we will mate
For a date, never Lat8(late)
If not Str8, we won't Hat8(hate)
Cheer for us if you are STR8
GOOOOO!!! MAT8(mate)!!!!!!

So lectures didn't really start yet...so we had LOTS of time to just be 'orientated'

on the 25th of Feb
we had ICE BREAKERS in the carpark from 6-10pm
it was fun enough...but it was abit messy
since there are like 10 stations and at each time diffrent orders were given out for the game...plus there were like echos(indoor carpark mah),so we could not hear clearly d rules of the diffrent games...
but it was ok...nothing BAD
i got hosed wet with water from a fire hydrant,painted on the face,covered in starch and flour...
so nothing serious...

On the 27th of Feb
we had indoor tresure hunt around 5.30pm to 10pm...
and before we had the hunt
the seniors showed us the horror zombie flick "Quarantine"...
to just get us in the mood...
man it was SOOO fun
our group was like screaming all the way for no reason
and we were like all saying "wheres the little long hair girl???"
plus we even predicted wat will happen nxt...
man,never had this much fun watching a horror show..haha

than at around 8pm,the HUNT began
and we played in IMU itself
it was SOOOO COOLL
coz they switched off the lights in IMU
so it was kind of dark
COOOLLL!!!
than we held hands and formed a cicle to protect our leader in the middle
coz when "zombies" comes and attack us,the leader is the only onr that can stop the zombies by chanting their name while shining a touch light on them
the chant is "chikalaka bugalaga,i know you are ____"

it was fun...than our group was like SOOOO hyper
while other groups was keeping quite so that the zombie won't find them.
we were like crazily singing and skiping like we were high on sugar...
our group didn't win,but it was really fun,
plus this is the 1st time running everywhere while holding hands...
my hands were kind of painful coz of weird positions when climbing upstairs.

On that saturday,we had outdoor treasure hunt...and it was DIRTY
we started in the morning around 9am...and we went to the Park nearby...
and again,we had to hold hands to protect our leader from the zombies...
we ran,duck-walked,bite on raw salty fish,got covered in paint,flour,oil,butter,Eggs,water,'chicken blood' and some other weird liquid...
i covered my face with white flour and painted my cheeks lips and eyebrows to look like a Geisha in one station.
we passed bananas,oranges and eggs with our feet like doing a half flip on the floor.
We screamed till our throats were sore for the cheer fight.
we passed water balloons with our shirts.
we ran 6 rounds,push ups over 30 times,ducked walk up 4 fligh of stairs and a path.

It was dirty,but fun
the hardest station was the 'maccha' station
where they force us to run,shout,apply flour eggs on our face ourselves and even do push ups....it was SOOOO tiring man that station...my legs was like going to fall off...

it ended around 2pm,and my group was planing to do the track trip to KLCC at around 4pm....but i was SOOOO tired,so i had to skipped going to KLCC...really wanted to go lo....

Than this week we had dress code 1 on monday where every group needed to do a sketch with the assign characters and song by the seniors...
our group had disney characters with....Akon's song, DANGEROUS....man it was weird...but SOOO funny ...
other group had 'starwas idol' and'powerrangers'...my god the power rangers was the funniest...we laughed soooo hard man....coz the rangers was like wearing thights...hahhaha ,plus their sketch is freaking funny(but bit perverted)

than there was telematch and dress code 2, but i didn't go,coz i was really tired plus i felt abit sick...oh well...

than yesterday was VARIETY NITE
where all the groups must perform...
they even had a 'quality control' group to stop the act IF it was BORING or just plain perverted and obsece...
but this year...the QC group was called 'Content Restriction and Protection'.
So in short they are called C.R.A.P!!!
haha,damn geng
so whenever we felt the act was stupid or just perverted
we just shouted CRAP !!! CRAP!!!!
than the CRAP team will go up stage,chop a 'REJECT' on their forehands and force them to wear boards and t-shirts with wordings like
'I'm Sissy','UNFUNNY','CRAP', and the one i find the most amuzing :'Send to MONASH'...ahhahaha,my god they really like to use monash...
they even made a prison to put the CRAP pple inside...

ALot of groups use monash too(no offence lah)
like "Monk-Ash temple"or "monkey-ass"
even IMU was called 'international money-taking university'
and yes,the audience went clapping and cheering when they saw that.

than we also had the IMSS perfomance.
IMSS can be "i'm super soldier,still singer,sometimes straight,sexually starved ect."
you can use the SS as anything but each one is assign a story...its a solo act...
some was SOOOO funny and some was jus plain boring and perverted....CRAP we say...
my group was 'I'm sometims straight'
and it was really good
good job Noel!!!
he had the power to attract anything
so he attracted buildings,stuff....and even a senior's ass
the judges went cheering when they saw the ass thing
coz they knew the senior
but in the end
his power back-fired
and he was attracted to himself
so he was like acting half guy half girl
GREAT MAN!!!

there were also group performace
where we are assign a starting and ending phrase...plus a song that we needed to use
we had the song from hairspray...
our group was the 1st one to act
it was funny
but i guess in the end when the dancing started(dance from the hairspray).
we got CRAP...so sad lah
i thought it was OK wat...y crap us!!!
oh well....We did our best lol

Alot of groups did great!!!
like one where they made a serious drama(with live piano and guitar and singing COMPOSED by themselves...so touching man)
and it was really touching....the only SERIOUS story there...
it was about ppl always wearing mask to cover their true emotions...
CLAP CLAP CLAP....really good!!!
I was almost moved to tears....sob sob

than there was this group that had really great PROPS!!!!!
i laughed my head off for this group...
they made it looked like the background was moving
but actually it was just the group members themselves
running and walking backwards to look like it is moving
than they like dedicated this sketch to the med an dental students
and how they potray the NON-med and dental students was GENIUoS!!!

than one group made indian-accent funny
the indian guy was suppose to be an angel
don know why it was just hilarious
i guess all of us love Peter Russells
so this group use lines from him like
'take it and go' and 'somebody is going to be ...'
amazing how indian accent is funny

than there was a handful of groups that just didn't care about getting CRAP
it was SOOOOOOO perverted...in a very passive way
man...they potrait themselves as sperms and ovums for their play
and called themselves SPARTAN SPERM!!!!OMG
and some use milk for _______...
oh,and there was even HARD GAY in one sketch
my god!!!leather shorts!!!!
hahha,so funny man,the crap team could not even stop him...
and he did his signature "thrust"action...ewwwww...
there were also really random sketch
where it was just plain boring and stupid...

Today is Finale nite with the theme RETRO....
but i don think i;ll go
really want to lol
since its the last day of orientation
but i'm SOOO tired man
came back at around 1am yesterday
and plus
i don have any retro stuff
so lazy to go and buy
and its at late at nite too...

Oh well....orientation is over
and it was really tiring,tough but at the same time fun...
Its been a long time since i laughed for 4 hours straight
my abdomen muscles had a reallllll workout lo!!!if orientation lasted for a month,maybe i'll have a six pack by than....haiz.

Great fun
thanks to GROUP 8,you all are just AWESOME !!!!
thanks to the OOs, you are really our saviours and really helpful..if nxt semester i have the chance...i'll like to be an OO too...get ragged all over again..hoho.
thanks to the seniors and organizers, really great work, you all really looked out for us even during ragging time...

So now,Studying OFFICIALLY starts....sigh
for those who didn't join the orientation without a real reason,too bad for you guys man, you missed alot of fun stuff.i know at some point its really boring or tiring,but in the end...its just FUN!!!!

So us batch are really lucky,coz ragging is really mild this time...but still funny and fun...like having a half cooked cake mixture on my head when i was driving home after treasure hunt...it seriously was baking on my head when we were running under the hot sun...

hope my IMU life will be great...
so far,its just plain silly,haha

15 things I love & hate

2009-03-05T19:57:00.002+08:00

Just things i LOVE and Hate

~~Love,Like,Cherish~~

I LOVE:
1)Laughing without control
2)Cracking jokes to make everyone around me happy
3)Talking whats on my mind and not be "paiseh" about it
4)Lying on bed and finishing one whole series of korean/japanese/Hk/taiwanese drama
5)Acting like a total idiot with my friends
6)Dawn
7)Eating chocolates and not think of how much calories it contains
8)Being with my family
9)Doing random and unplanned fun things
10)Finishing a good book under a week
11)Surfing the net
12)Eating out and chatting with friends
13)Going on trips with my family>.<
14)Mint flavoured Chocolate, Indian curry mutton, and anything cheesy(not acting cheesy but food cheesy ok...)
15)Having people loving me for who i am and always being there for me (thanx>.<)

Hate,Burn,GRrrRrRr...

I HATE:
1)Rude,spiteful ppl
2)Creepy,Crawly creatures (Daddy long legs Spiders ect.)
3)People ignoring me
4)Stupid endings of good dramas
5)Being looked down at
6)Feeling stupid
7)Not being there for the fun
8)Public dirty toilets with no toiler paper
9)People not replying my SMSs(if not answered the 2nd time i send it than i get real pissed off), or people who never pick up their phones even after i miss called them more than 5 times.
10)Being late or other people being late(if u're late more than 1 hour,i'll be seriously pissed)
11)Being Disorganized, Messy
12)Two faced back stabers
13)Misplacing or Losing any of my stuff
14)Other people placing their foot (no matter how clean it is )near or on my pillow(even near the area i sleep is unbeareble for me)
15)Show offs,ppl bragging too obsesively ,flirtatious galz and guys that think they are SOOO handsome or popular that they treat people diffrently based on their appearances.

Life is Complicated...but simple at the same time.
Life is filled with hurts and sorrows...but filled with laughter and support at the same time.

Man,I'm so random la!!!
haha

Just look over your shoulders

2009-03-01T17:24:00.002+08:00

I don't know how long
or how hard i've tried
to always be diffrent

I don't know how painful
or how tiring
to always be someone else but me

I always looked for all the unnecessary things
when all the truth is in front of me

When shadows fall
When skies turns grey
i'll always forget to just look away

When tears are shed
When hearts are mourning
I now must remember to look over my shoulders

Just look over your shoulders
To learn
To know what strokes are cast upon me

Just look over your shoulders
To see
To know how many footsteps it takes

Just look over your shoulders
To feel
and to finally just accept who you are

I don't know what it takes
to be better
to be that person who i admire the most

I don't know what i should do
to be happier
to be that person who's inside of my heart

~~~~~~
I don't know
don't know
but just look over your shoulders
and see

Have courage just to let go
let go
be free
be who your meant to be

no more shadows
only sunshine
no more pretending
only facing
no more hiding
only revealing
no more lying
only just be what your meant to be
...

Just...

2009-02-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

Don noe...
i just feel like writing...
don noe wat to write....
but still feel like tapping the keyboards...
and to say something...

I'm really weird aren't I
oh well...let the games begin than

My prayer finally answered!!!wooohooo

2009-02-19T14:46:00.002+08:00

yesterday at 6.30pm...i received a call from IMU
and guess wat...I GOT ACCEPTED!!!!!!!!
WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

for the past month...my parents and I have been in a low low low devestated mood...
because the PMS(Partner Medical School) option for IMU was said to be FULL...
and only the local one is available...
but i truthfully didn't want to do ALL local...
Not because i'm trying to be a over the top air-head that Just wants to go overseas for FUN...
but going overseas is an experiece...
and I would grow and learn faster,
plus for med going to western countries would be better.

So for the past weeks,my dad has been constantly calling IMU up for me,
and all the responces was not good,
like the news that I was no.9 on the long PMS waiting list...
i mean,wat are the chances of me getting a spot IF there were 8 more ppl above me...
and the course starts next week,
so i started to think that it was impossible for 9 ppl to drop from IMU med and at least gave me a chance to fill their spot...

So I had other options to fulfill my doc dream like...
1)going to Ireland straigh for 5 years and it cost over a MILLION!!!!
2)wait for the Aug intake in IMU...but chances are slims since more competition that time coz of the A-levels student
3)waste one year and re-apply for the Feb intake NXT YEAR...

so ya...i pity my parents for bursting their head to find other options for me...

BUT,god had answered my prayers....and YES!!!!I'm finally a student of IMU!!!
the best newz EVER

so i went with my dad and paid and register in IMU at 10am today...
and of coz
met up with my crazy over the top friends...
Mok,Jocin and Benny
all who are doing Mpharm in IMU too...
woohooo....at least i get to meet up with them more often now...
totally miss their RANDOMNESS...
i was signing over soooo many documents for the registration that i wasn't even reading them...
since the other 3 kept craping and disturbing me...i just sign and sign and sign...
well...at least now i'm a MED STUDENT!!!!
wooohooo to that...

Orientation starts nxt week...
excited yet afraid
but all the same I feel over the moon now
totalllyyyyyy happy...
buckle my seat belts...coz the draded STUDYING will began soon...
but wat the heck...its all worth it in the end ...(i Hope)

God Bless

Everytime during DUSK

2009-02-16T15:57:00.004+08:00

Dusk...
is when the sun is setting at the horizon.
...my most favourite time of the day...

I enjoy it when the whether suddenly changes from burning your ass hot to sending little shivers cool...
I enjoy it when the wind always suddenly picks up whenever its time for the Sun to dissapear...
I enjoy watching the blue bright sky slowly dissolves into a light scarlet with a hint of orange...
I enjoy seeing birds flying in flocks across the scarlet sky and sometimes dancing harmoniously with the brisk wind in sync...
yes...I enjoy every moment of it...
every cool breeze
every stroke of red and orange across the sky
every second of it...

I guess another reason why i enjoy DUSK so much is because of the memories spent with dear old beautiful DUSK...

like during my primary days...where we all go home at sunset...the sweet feeling of going home...and golden moments spent with friends during the walk from our class to the school gate to go home...

like during my Junior high days...where we have our annual society camp in school...during dusk...we will always play fun games...since we need to win to eat dinner faster...and yes...just thinking of those times makes me smile...where we were all screaming and running around like a few six year olds...with the cool breeze surrounding us...

like during my High school SPM days...where those sunset times were spent with my close friends...where we chit-chat and laugh during our way back from dinner together...where we stood in the balcony laughing and taking in all DUSK has to offer before our SPM tuition starts...and the memories of us crazy 17year olds sneakingly took the elavator to the 7th floor(where we SHOULD not be in)before the tuition and played chasing and hiding together(that day was called...Hiding From the COCONUT challenge...u all who was with me should know wat i mean rite...*wink*)...

and like during all those other times...last years mooncake festival gathering and steamboat...coming back from a fun day with friends...after activities...after gatherings...yes....all seems to happen during dusk...that's why i love dusk so much...

yes...the fun and unforgettable times was during Dusk...
That's why whenever dusk arrives...
there is always a tiggling warm happy feeling in my heart...
like it seems only at that time of the day...
i could calm down...and smile at my dear old past...

so let the cool sweet breeze fill your lungs
let the scarlet painted skies fill your mind
let the slowly setting sun fill your senses...

and

take in every second of dusk
~
~
~

Happy Valentines day~~~

2009-02-14T11:04:00.002+08:00

Yep...its d day of LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!!
Where PPl are trying to rip off lovers by FORCING them to buy flowers,presents and cards....
and not to mention all the restaurents are now crazily happy since they also rip off couples by offering LOVER's SET LUNCH/DINNER...

For me..I'm single
I don know if it is a good thing or a bad thing
BUT i'm still young
and I'm happy and loving being single
Like wat some of my other single frens say
Don need to waste money,time and effort on anyone else
So WE single ladies can be as selfish as we want....*Evil smirk*

Moving on...
A word to the ppl out there who are feeling left out or lonely on valentines day...
"COME ON MAN!!!Don be SUCHHHH a sour FACE"
thats d only advice i can give u...

Oh,and stragely i had a valentines related dream yesterday
which was somehow strange...and surprising
Hopefully that dream will come through one day
ROFL....

SO HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!!!

When perfection crumbles

2009-02-11T17:41:00.002+08:00

i feel like crap now
I heard that i'm no.9 on the waiting list of med in IMU
wat are the chances of me getting in now???

I'm now cursing myself why i didn't get TER95
why am i sooo useless to not get in
I don wan to do local...thinking of it makes me so scared

If the IMU option fails...i might go to Ireland straigh
which means MORE MONEY!!!
about 30000 euros per year
and NOT including living expences

SHIT!!!!
Feeling like crap now
I can't find what else is suited for me
If i don do medicine...than what should I do
I'm not good at anything...MAN...this SUCKS!!!!
I suck!!!!

Farewells and Strawberries~

2009-02-07T20:56:00.006+08:00

I am still on holiday mood now...
Wating for my offer letter that SHOULD and Hopefully be here soon...
So for the time being I'm wasting time now
And witnessing my fellow friends leaving for overseas...

on the 31st of last month
my Monkey friend CK left malaysia for Aus...
Its quite sad lol...
all my frens leaving me and going away
and in this few months
a few is going to Taiwan...

man...how i wish time does not move so fast
miss d days when we used to just hang out

The now so called australian boy during his farewell party

Putting Farewells aside
I'm now SOOO bored that i STARTED BAKING!!!
ya i noe...a total shocker
i abandoned baking about 2 years ago
that time i loved baking cookies and cupcakes

But now i'm taking on a bigger challenge...

~STRAWBERRY PUDDING CHEESECAKE~

The BEST strawberries ever...Imported fresh from Korea

The Kind-of finish product....its still in pudding form and needs another 2 hours in the fridge to be hardened...

In the end it was a 80% success
the sponge crust was too hard
but besides that ,it taste ALOT like a delicious strawberry creamy pudding cheesecake.

Strawberry ROCKS!!!!!

Looking at the Reflection of my ~Hour Glass~

2009-02-03T15:54:00.012+08:00

Happy CNY everyone
and once again....wishing you all a happy birthday
coz its a new year...so everyone is now a YEAR older
oh GREAT...so now i'm 19 years old
one more year till i hit the big 20!!!!
I can't call myself a teenager anymore!!!!DAMN

Putting aside mandarin oranges,fire crakers,meeting relatives, ang pow,gaining weight and the vomit reflux now felt whenever i see chinese food...
i guess its time to look at the reflection of my Hour Glass
and to see how every little grain of sand in that hour glass carries my once pass memories...

I remember the days i was little and innocent
where i had flowing long pigtails and questions about the world around me
I was english educated but i attended a chinese kindergarden in Eng An Klang...
and than moved on to Hin Hua Primary...

I remembered how confused i was...and how alone i once was
where everyone around me spoke a language i could not figure out
Teachers thought i was retarded and hit me
But even through the language barrier...I made friends that was always by my side...

Even till now...I still remember the dear faces of friends that was always beside me...
but sadly I never knew how to treasure them dearly
thus losing contact with them...and forgeting to say a big THANK YOU

I made the decision to continue on with my chinese education
So i went to Hin Hua High...
My memories of junior 1 till junior 3 is all a blur
It was ok...but again i didn't know how to treasure friends back then
and i didn't want to do anything "diffrent", so I just faded into the background...

I started to really grow up when i hit 16 years old
and when i entered Senior 1 year...
I met a group of great friends...and through them i learned how to look at myself and change for the better
Our class was quite tight knited...and the memories we made were priceless...
I never dreaded school...but surprisingly i Loved going to school...
I never felt out of place and everyday was joyful and fun

The galz of S1SF when we were getting ready for the chinese drama competition

Than came Senior 2
Where it was the toughest....but one of the best years
We needed to juggle btw our normal school work and SPM
(We had SPM tuition on Wed and Fri from 6pm till 9pm)
So i stayed back at school for the WHOLE day whenever we had the tuition
It was TOUGH!!!!and tiring
BUT with the power of friends by your side...it was the best of times

It was not only the year of SPM and studying
but it was also a year for my own self discovery...and again...learning to grow up more

The so called "4 SO'S...where we have So fat, So skinny,So white and So short...Miss you guys"

Always goofing around before our SPM tuition starts

Hungry but enjoying every second during femine 30

Genting trip

S2SF...too bad i can't continue with u guys till senior 3...but will always love all of ya

Yes~~~it was the best of times...Always craping,playing around,sharing...I felt so blessed to have those sometimes bitter..but always sweet in the end memories...i will always cherish all of you

Than there was college time in taylors
truthfully...it was a HARD year for me
because i met the worst person who hurt me really badly with his oh so STUPIDness...
Nope...it was not love problem...but friendship problem
i learned that i was not in hin hua anymore
where my classmates i known for 2 years
but i was going to start anew...and it was really tough

the syllabus was kind of hard
but it was not as hard as trying to find my true self again

my classmates are all great ppl...i mean i met great friends
but it was ME...who went through a rough patch in my life
where confusion and anger came with no reasons
where self hate and loneliness developt
It was THAT kind of time...where you get to learn that the world DOES NOT do as you please...but that YOU must do something to get what you want

But by the time i came to my senses
Time was up
and so the scars was permanent...but it does heals...slowly

It was a year filled with confusion,misunderstandings,self-disbelive and all that crap about growing up
well,the more you fall and hurt yourself..the more you grow to become stronger rite.
BUT....i had some Great times there...and those memories I will never forget...

our Drink stall during donationg raising day in Taylors

Class G12!!!!with our mentor Puan Mahani....Love you guys!!!!great times

My GALZ~~~~thx so much

Great times with this bunch >.< so going to miss them

Yep...we were TOTALLY singing freaks

Yes...all precious memories...
but time is like those grain of sand in the hour glass
once it flows to the bottom
it will NEVER return...

So...treasure time..and make watever memories with it...
As for my next chapter in my life
hopefully fulfilling my dream of being a Dr...

So...wait for the hopefully great news

Happy new year
TATA

传说中的~幸福点名游戏，你被点名了！

2009-01-13T17:17:00.003+08:00

Ok...i've been tagged~~~
and the person who tagged me is~~~~~chian lol
and i know she'll be extra 不爽 if i don reply back
aiks!!!!
well,since i have some time on my hands
so here we go
and i'll be typing in chinese
woohooo!!!!
~~~~~~~~~
幸福的點名遊戲
幸福點點名遊戲規則
回答下列問題，並貼到自己的網誌or報台
寫完後，自己多加一個問題
然後傳給十個人，可以點被點過的人
被你點到的人你要去跟他說，我點到你了
寫完後去跟點到你的人說「我寫完了」
不可以不寫喔，不然幸福就會跑掉喔
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1.我的大名：SHARON 丽清（我姓什么你应该懂吧！！！）

2.我的生日：DECEMBER 14！！！

3.誰傳給你的: 三八的ＬＩＮＧＣＨＩＡＮ

4.說出五個好朋友 : 不要啦～～～我身边的每一个都一样珍贵！！！

6.生日想要得到什麼禮物：只要人家的祝福就开心了！！！

7.近期開心的是 :觉得我太幸福了。。。ＣＯＺ有我朋友和家人在ＨＯＬＩＤＡＹ时的陪伴！！！

8.近期壓力大的是：ＩＭＵ会不会接受我读医科

9.未來想做什麼啊：认真，开心的伟大医生

10.有沒有喜歡的人：有啊！！！家人和朋友咯！！！哈哈

11.同學會要回去找老師嗎：要找我ＣＯＬＬＥＧＥ的化学老师　ＰＵＡＮ　ＭＡＨＡＮＩ

12.跟誰出去最幸福：家人，朋友咯！！！

13.如果你的兩個好友吵架了：想办法让他们合好！！！

14.跟情人出去最想去哪：游乐场！！！

15.聖誕節要做啥：我好喜欢去别国家看他们怎样过圣诞节。。。ＣＯＺ他们布置得很美！！！

16.最想跟誰過聖誕節：朋友家人咯！！！

17.有沒有起床氣：有！！！起来过后的半小时我超级ＦＩＥＲＣＥ！！！很容易生气！！

18.有幾個兄弟姐妹：３

19.最喜歡的一首歌(女生的) ：不一定

20.最喜歡的一首歌(男生的)：不一定

21.喜歡什麼顏色：黑色，蓝色，紫色

22.上廁所會不會先沖水：脏的话！！

23.愛不愛我：ＯＫＬＯＬ，ＢＯＬＥＨ　ＴＡＨＡＮ

24.喜歡男生還是女生：男的！！！我不是同性恋。。。

42.最想大聲說什麼: 。。。

43.半夜敢不敢自己上廁所：OF COZ敢。。。如果很急的话怎样继续睡觉哦！！

44.上廁所會不會脫褲褲：废话！！！

46.誰很欠打：认识我的人都懂。。。

47.現在很迷什麼：迷韩剧，韩歌，韩综义节目！！！哈哈~~~

48.睡相很差：应该吧~~~

49.現在的時間：5.35PM

50.是否痛恨傳給你點卷的人：OK啦。。。

51.體重多少：哦！！！太重！！！秘密！！

52.今天天氣：雨过天

53.你懷孕了嗎：ＯＦＣＯＺＮＯＴ！！！

54.你若中樂透最想做什麼？：啊。。。go holiday!!!

55.大學生一定要玩的活動：ＡＰＡ都玩！！！
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【點名人物】 (不分先後)

＊＊看ＢＬＯＧ的人都要答！！！！我懒惰选１０人啦！！！ＳＯＲＲＹ！！
我懂我ＢＲＥＡＫ　ＴＨＥ　ＲＵＬＥ了！！！

～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
1.是誰傳給你這份問卷的：CHIANCHIAN

2.你們認識多久呢：3年多！！！

3.你覺得他(她)對你來說很重要嗎：是啊！！！很搞笑，开朗，细心，善良！！！

4.你與他(她)的關係是：好朋友咯

5.請問他(她)的興趣是：唱歌！！！

6.你覺得他(她)的個性如何：GOOD GIRL！！！

7.他(她)在你心目中是幾分：10 OUT OF 10

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＊睡覺前第一件事：check alarm clock set already???

＊起床前第一件事：off alarm clock

＊你的偶像是：changes de...

＊你喜歡的季節：冬季

＊你打工過嗎：nope~~~>.<

＊打工次數：0

＊你想去的國家：japan,australia,korea

＊你討厭什麼樣的個性: Fake,Rude,Two-faced,Not responsible!!!

＊你會抽菸嗎：never in all my life...i HATE it!!!

＊你會喝酒嗎：a bit lol...red wine mostly

＊你常哭嗎: i guess so...when i'm sad or watching sad shows~~~

＊你常笑嗎：yep...no matter wat i must smile everyday!!!

＊你喜歡去哪兒玩：anywhere with a cold wether or 游乐园

＊去玩時喜歡一個人去嗎：Depends lah...but i hate being alone...so of coz it will be more fun with my family or friends

＊是假日時你都睡到幾點：depends...but latest is 10.30am

＊今天的天氣是（晴雨陰）：陰

＊朋友和情人你會選擇：not sure,i nv had a lover...but frens are always the best rite?

＊機會和命運你會選擇：命运

＊你很自戀嗎：sometimes lah...ahem~~~

＊你有穿過耳洞嗎：yes....i have double

＊這問卷多不多：one word...HAIZ

＊要怎樣才能讓自己過的好一點：think positively and be brave in life

＊喜歡吃冰嗎：most of the time YA!!!

＊現在幸福嗎：yep...i feel i'm really blessed...>.<

＊最在乎哪幾個朋友：the ones who also cares about me

＊房間裡最重要的東西是什麼：bed of coz...

＊最常夢到什麼：adventures...

＊男人精神出軌要不要原諒他？：em....wat???

＊你認為人生的意義是什麼：Take chances,enjoy every second of life and be happy

*你好吗？^^：um....ok i guess

*爱情和友情，你比较重视什么？：i nv tried love b4...but for now,the most important is friendship...ITS AWESOME!!!!

My Question:(pretty pls reply~~~)

你觉得我是个怎样的人？

WOOOHOOOO!!!!finally finished!!!!
well,for those who are reading...pls answer my questions ya
AND must answer the last question also!!!!

or at least wat u can do is to answer the last question in my comment box...
i mean COME ON!!!!how hard izit to answer just one question!!!

i'm SOOOO breaking the rules of this game
but really i can't choose 10 ppl
coz i want to ask MORE than 10 ppl
and its really hard to just pin-point 10 ppl

so,all pls answer!!!!
SO,pls answer k
>.<

take care

Buffet anyone??

2009-01-12T21:14:00.003+08:00

When to SHOGUN pyramid today for buffet lunch~~~
and once again i ate TOO MUCH!!!!aiks~~~
sat there with Jasmine qian,CK,H2or,Selina and Harold from 12pm till 3pm...really am afraid of any fish or sushi now
and YEH!!!got promotion..so the normal RM43++ decrease to RM33 only...WAHAHAHA!!!save money...WOOHOOOO

than went ktv at redbox and sang for 3 hours there
by 5pm...everyone was darn tired already...man...singing really sucks ur energy away.

And thanks to CK for fetching me home...
how many round abouts u need to turn b4 u reach my home...aiks again

well...another tiring but joyful day...
Soon...everyones courses will be starting soon
So must keep on RELAXING and hangin out this few dayz...
Some going aus,taiwan,india and other states...wow...so fast rite

Happy holidays again
BE HAPPY ok!!!!

Don Get Me WronG

2009-01-11T20:52:00.007+08:00

hoho
Malaysia really is MALAYSIA
i've been going out this few days
and i've been laughing my ass off with our MANGLISH(Malaysian English)
and some weird english names given to food

So i would like to share some really COOL pics
that i took with our proud English

Its suppose to be Assorted ....but if u short formed it....it really does not sound so nice

Do you wan some bread made FROM germans and not BY germans???should i report this???

I saw this during my christmas shopping....hmmm...u wan some stolen bread???

This are just a handful of funny manglish in malaysia...but don worry
this is not only malaysia's problem
Hong Kong has their own hongkglish too

This is ONE of the "english" i saw when i was on my trip
there were more funnier once but i didn't have my camera when i saw those...

I wonder who d hell is SLIP....i should keep an eye out for him

Hey...Just be happy if u find these funny
At least u know ur english is good enough to understand whats d errors in these "english"

BE HAPPY YO!!!!

Somethings got to give~~~

2009-01-09T14:24:00.002+08:00

Wakaka...its still holiday for me
for now i'm just waiting for an offer by IMU into Med...
damn the waiting is killing me~~~~aiks
yesterday was the interview
and all i got to say is...AHHHHHHHIIIKKSSSS
but its over...so no use crying over spilled milk

Well,holiday doing same things
sometimes going out with my mom or frens
Most of the times online looking for any good shows
I'm like downloading all the korean variety shows i can find
coz their jokes really suit my taste
Its HACK funny...and of coz entertaining and original
and their not affraid to just be themselves and act silly
not like those americans variety shows...MY GOD!!!how fake can they be
like Astro's E!Entertainment shows like Living Lohan or wat ever crap
My god...its just plain stupid...do they enjoy showing pple that they are idiots??
no offence though...i still enjoy american idol and project runway...hell yeh!!!

Well,besides that i've been surfing youtube...
Than on Mon and Tue, i watch K-dramas live from korea through streaming sites
don ask me why...i just do it for the heck of it....even if i don really understand korean...but i can't wait for it to be uploaded onto youtube...coz that show is GOOD

than been keeping up with new seasons of shows like House and Pushing Daisies(Which is canceled in america!!!why???????its such a great show..man,its SO original...darn it!!!)...not going to touch Heroes season 3...heard it was awful

and....I'm
Reading Dan Brown's angels and demons...
Some chinese novels...and again re-watching some old japanese series...

Yep...tat's all i do basiclly
sleep alot...enjoy alot....waste as much of time as i can
coz if med course starts....there won't be much ME time anymore...
which is good ...
at least i got something to do other than hogging youtube and forums

2more weeks b4 CNY.....which means more added KG to my weigh ....yeepeee *sarcasticlly*!!!!
and of coz added KGs *wink* into my pocket...

Until then...tata
and to all who still have holidays~~~~ HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
to all who started class~~~~~HAHAHAHAAHA *evil laugh*...to you!!!
to all doing part time jobs or working~~~~again *evil laugh* to you!!!

>.< PEACE!!!

Regret

2009-01-06T19:45:00.003+08:00

Regreting the past again....is a pain in the A$$
Because i had the decision to choose what i wanted
But i went against my senses
And again...ended up in a damn sad situation

Thus...live your life what YOU want it to be
Never just say "whatever" or "it doesn't matter"
Because the fact is
Everything...and i mean EVERYTHING you do affects what will happen next
sometimes good...sometimes really bad

A new year...a new beginning
and this time...i will not let myself down

Do what you think is right...and leave if you think it is wrong
Regret is painful...and it scars you forever

So...Never be regretful of how you live your life
Just do what you want...and how you want it
Even if your decision fails in the end
at least you will be happy that you will not REGRET it

Happy New Year
and may it be an UNregretful year~~

FEAR NOTHING, REGRET NOTHING

~Memories~

2009-01-03T21:56:00.007+08:00

What does the future hold for me
No one knows for sure
Will I still be the same old me
Or make a tragic change

Looking at the cloudless sky
I whisper to myself
"Why does time fly by
and happy times fade so quickly?"

Giggling at the old jokes told years ago
Smiling at the thought of how childish we once were
Tearing at the mistakes once made
And laughing at the once sweet memories

Eighteen years has passed
and many memories made
But i noticed one thing recently
which is my memories are starting to blur

The future is a mystery
The past just memories
But no matter what challenges comes our ways
Treasure everyday the same

So hold on tight for another ride
As new challenges comes our way
Keep your memories and look on straigh
A new adventure awaits once again!!!

~sharon~

Hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-01T16:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't believe a year has passed by again...
it just felt like yesterday that i was still a Junior 1 student in Hin Hua High School
My god...time really flys by
espeacially when u become older....aiks!!!!I'm going to be 19 this year....arrrrhhhh!!!

So...To say farewell to the lovely 2008...I went to Bukit Tinggi Aeon with some pals(Ling qian,Kok Hung,Zhen Sheng,Harold,Xuan He "H2OR",Zi Yong"the Prince",Zhen Hao "air-con")....I also met Mia and Ting there...but they working part-time there...so can't join us....cry!!!!but thanks to them lol,coz they gave me a LOVELY belated B-day present...Thank you 2 so's!!!

Wat we did:
1)Ate at Sake Sushi
2)Walk around without a destination
3)Went on harold's car to Pet's wonderland...than went to Baskin Robbins since they have 31% off on ice-creams~~~~YUM!!!
4)Went back to Bukit Tinggin Aeon and watched movie (葉间 IP MAN)

(葉间 IP MAN)is a really great show....the Kung Fu was INSANELY GOOD!!!!!!!!i mean it looks SOOOOOO COOOOOOLLLL!!!!The story was well...ok...but it is worth a watch for its really cool kung fu moves...and some touching scenes >.< sob sob

All of us!!!Happy New YEAR!!!!

So...this was wat we did....some of them continued to LEPAK for countdown..but i went back early...coz lazy to countdown...ate KFC and Secret Recipe's New York Cheese with my family~~~~hoho

again,HAPPY NEW YEAR
2009 will be another great year....so make the best out of it!!!!!!!

香港+深圳+广州+番禺+中山+珠海+澳门

2008-12-27T20:36:00.010+08:00

I'm back from my trip
and it was really nice...
but there are lotz of rude ppl around china lol...

So...i set of on my journey with my parents on the 17th of Dec
and it was the same day my SAM results are out...
i checked my results online at 6am...and my legs and hands was shivering when i was waiting for my results to show up on my monitor...
and thank god i got the results i wanted...it was not as good as i thought i will get
but it was good enough for me to enter med school

So moving on...we flew to Macao and reached there at 3pm
We than took a ferry to Hong Kong...and their ferry was really nice,not like the ones like Langkawi...It was big and comfy...and cool
So when we reached Hong Kong ,it was already 7pm...We had Dinner and went shopping at a nearby shopping complex....rite nxt to our hotel...

2nd Day~~~
We started our Hong kong tour
Went to Victoria Peak,Aberdeen Fishing Village,Avenue of Stars,Golden Bauhinia Square...and it was HOT !!!!!!!!!!i mean its winter rite...but it was hot...coz the sun BURNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so i didnt' wear my coat for the whole day...

boat time!!!

golden bauhinia square

Avenue of Stars

Hong Kong City!!!

"Poon Choi" for lunch

Than we went to Ladies' shopping street at nite....Lots of fake goods...but nothing to buy coz it was really poor quality!!!than Dinner was on our own...so we rode the subway(called MTR)back to our hotel and had chinese food at a small hong kong tea house(the once u see in HK dramas)...yum yum
At 9pm...my great uncle who stays in hong kong came to our hotel and visit us...we chated for 2 hours...i can't really converse with him coz my canto sucks...but i can understand 90% of wat he says...and did talk to him with my really bad canto...which i'm quite amazed that my canto was ok...haha...not bad for me....he and his daughter also brought fruits for us too...>.<

Fruits~~~

Day 3~~

went to Shenzhen
not much....sigh seeing...and of coz....we went to WINDOW OF THE WORLD...where u can see mini version of the world landmarks...really cool...and it looked real too>.<

Day 4~~

Still in Shenzhen

went to china folk culture village,and saw lots of shows...3 shows actually...and it was SOOOOO cool!!!...it was something like the opening of the beijing olympics...lots of colours and dancing...costumes...really really nice

Day 5~~

went to Guangzhou

visited the xiguan ancient mansions....and it was SOOOO beautiful..it was like those olden day shows...the once in the 20th century...where all the rich once stays....love their gardens...

in the mansion

than at nite when for a boat cruise around to see the city...than after that isSHOPPING again!!!wakakkaka...but came back with a bag and scarf..i hate shopping there...SOOOO many ppl....and they really push u out of the way to buy their goods...EWWW!!!!and the sales assistants was all so desperate...they will grab u in even if u were just window shopping...so after an hour of walking around...we gave up and went to STARBUCKS for coffee...had flamming pudding,cheesecake,mocha ice-blended and their christmas special...almond caramel coffee ...

boat cruising~~

Day 6~~

Went to Honey farm and temples....than at nite went to the circus....at it was again...really splendid...so damn cool!!!!

Day7~~

went to Panyu...which is a sea side town...and the weather was really really nice...it reminded me of Jeju island Korea...of coz site seeing again...like Fish Lady statue...than we went on cable car...yup...quite enjoyable...oh,and at nite we went shopping again...haha...at an underground shopping complex...and it was HUGE...and they even had portugues egg tarts at their KFC's...and it was darn good...better than the ones in malaysia~~~

The hotel we stayed in~~~

Last day~~~

Went to Macao...saw ruins of St Pauls,A-ma temple.golden lotus square,and and and...i entered a CASINO!!!!!!!!!!!yep...entered the SANDS casino...woohooo....and i even played slots...but i lost all the money(RM10)....but slots was REALLLY boring....aiks!!!but i gambled at a casino>>...woohooo....hahaha...and my parents was the ones tat asked me to try it out...ahhaha
Than went food shopping..

St Pauls ruins

Pork burger~~~yum

Pretty flowers in Macau

The SANDS casino

And yep...that was my trip~~~

SAY CHEESE~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
haha

Merry Christmas!!!!

2008-12-25T23:21:00.005+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of ya!!!!

well,i've just came back from hong kong,china and macao
haha...did lotz of winter clothes shopping there...
overall,the trip was nice...but i'll only write about the trip 2morow...so tired now coz i've just came back from my aunt's open house christmas party....and i drank 2 glasses of wine and 5 sips of whiskey there...

and when we got home,we ate the OPERA CHOCO CAKE we bought this afternoon...it was nice...and we drank one whole bottle of soju(korean rice wine)....yum...I'm not dizzy yet lol

OPERA CHOCO CAKE~~~YUM

Ready for the soju!!!!

Oh,and congrats to G12!!!SAM results are out and most of my classmates did good...haha...
I did OK,quite satisfied with my results,got TER 92...at least i met the requirements to enter IMU medicine...the interview will be next week i guess...hope there is still a spot for me...hopefully~~~~

Well,just wish you a MERRY CHRISTMAS...my HONG KONG journal will be out soon...tata for now...

YEH!!!!

HoLiDAy-iNG~~~~

2008-12-14T21:51:00.006+08:00

HaPPy bIrTHday To ME!!!!!!!!!!!
yep...i'm now a ripe old age of <<<18>>>
haha...another 2 more years till i'm in my twenties...
sob sob sob @_@

Well...nothing speacial today
ate dinner at 1-U chili's
and had Secret Recipe's cake!!!
Well...i would like to thank all my friends that wished me
i was really suprised that some of you even remembered!!!
i really thought that only a handful of ppl would even call or msg me on my b-day
but i was wrong...
suprisingly all of u wished me:)

Your wishes are already presents to me
So i thank you
haha

Ok...moving on
holiday is still on
and lets just say that its quite fun
i mean its been a long time since i could enjoy the internet or TV
and really...my ass is growing fatter by all this seating down

well...time for another...DRAMA UPDATE!!!

1)MOONLIGHT RESONANCE
i finished moonlight resonance in just 3 days...and only used night time to watched it...it was of coz GOOD....but darn is there alot of irritating ppl in this show...i could feel my blood pressure rising up when i see this show...but all in all...its a good show to be angry at...LOTS of family drama...and lots of B!tche$ to...haha....

2)ILJIMAE
i finished it in about 3 days too...watched it online...i got to say it was entertaining...and really touching too...really good korean period drama...great story,great actors,great set,great story...but not so great ending...it just ended half hanging...making me wanted to smashed the monitor when it just ENDED so suddenly...oh well...at least the actor Lee Jun Ki in this show is not so girlish looking though...all in all...a GREAT SHOW!!!

Well...this are just the shows i finished...there were like a few that i didnt finish...like innocent love where i just stopped watching it,maybe becoz the irritating gal showed up...girara,where i stopped watching after ep 6...but its a good show...and tons of other shows too...oh well...

I'll be off to Hong Kong nxt week...i promised myself that i will brush up on my cantonese...but wat the heck...its not going very well...i can't even speak the language...aiks...watever!!!i'll just talk in english....gRrRrR~~~~

SAM results will be out soon
SOOOOO nervous now...
well,thats all for now....tata and cheers~~~~

Dream once more

2008-12-08T11:05:00.002+08:00

I just slept for 7 hours yesterday
but my dream seems to last like for a whole 24 hours

Eversince the holiday started
i constantly dream now
and most of my dreams are fantasy related
where it is like i'm on an advanture in another world
but 5 mins after i wake up
all the details of the dreams i had will become really blur
and after i had my breakfast
i than can't even remember what my dream was ever about

Yesterday's dream was one of the most weird and depressing dream i ever had
and even now i can still remember my dream

My dream started out with me getting my SAM results
and i scored an aggregate of 79
which is one point less to enter IMU's medical school(needs aggregate of 80)
I was so pissed that i was one mark short
than i tried to enter other programs
but all the courses had been closed
So to my horror...i have no university to enter now
and than there were series of weird sub-stories
with weird creatures and people
and for some weird reasons
some of the people that appeared in my dreams were my friends that i didn't meet for like years now...

Than i woke up...and than my mom drove me out
than i told her about the dream i had...and we chat for awhile
before we were driving on a beutiful sandy beach

It was so beutiful with water so clear and sand so pure
the sun was setting that time...and we continued to drove for hours on the beach
Than i got out of the car and stood in the waters
It was so so calm and i could see people enjoying the waters and the cool breeze

than there were again sub-stories...but i totally forgot now
all i know is that it was weird...but intresting

than for some weird reason...i found myself in a school dorm
with my roommates(which were whites)
than again some weird thing happened...
with me fighting with a sword!!!!
and travelling on a quest!!!!
WAT THE %(#^&$(
ya i know...weird weird dream

THAN FINALLY i ACTUALLY woke up
and i was so so so tired
and my heart was racing...
and my feet were so soar...like i actually ran for hours
i than pinch myself to made sure this is not a dream

So to sum up
I dream that i was dreaming
So i woke up 2 times this morning
once was before i went on the beach
the last one was when i REALLY woke up

whew!!!thank god it was a dream
i really thought that i didn't have the chance to enter medical school
weird weird dream
scared the hell out of me!!!!

I really should rest more
nowadays my dreams are like out of a fantasy novel
where for some weird reason i'm the heroine(HA!!!Like tat will happen in real life)
hope i won't dream anymore
it really is tiring!!!

Just keep on holding on~~~

2008-12-06T19:51:00.003+08:00

~Everyday Is Always a Journey~

Why do people change so suddenly
Just a few days without a hello
and everything you thought u knew about them becomes an empty memory

But most importantly
Why do we ourselves change?

Scared to be diffrent and unique
We hide in the shaddows of others
Scared to be noticed and challenged
We hide in our own despair and tears

***

People always ask me:

Why do i hide myself?
*because you never bothered to find me*

Why do i never show the true me?
*because you never wanted to find me*

Why do i never tell people my thoughts?
*because you never listened*

Why do i never share my sadness?
*because you never once shed a tear for me*

Always hoping to find
But everytime it slips out of my grasp
And everytime dissapointed by losing it once again

***
Just like a caterpillar changing into a butterfly
Just like a bud changing into a rose
We are all rapidly growing and changing

Hopefully when the time comes my friends
that we all still remember where and how we were in the past
and maybe my dream will come true one day
when someone will find me among the beautiful roses and butterfly

Life is filled with wonders!!!
so get up and go out a step...
to experiece it all

~sharon~

Farewell once more?...NOPE

2008-11-27T12:30:00.003+08:00

I'm back from langkawi
whole body aching and i'm tanned now....sigh

Lets just say the trip is enjoyable enough
Went and play on the beach
than went canoe-ing
than went to 淡水pond to swim
than went duty free shopping
than went to Bukit Merah Water Park
than ate lots of seafood
than drank alcohol
haha...they really know how to drink
of coz lah...the alcohol there damn cheap
i also cant resist to buy some and drink

The most memorable part of the trip was the last night we spend there
we all ate maggi mee on the beach at 10pm!!!
they even used the hotel bed sheet to sit on the beach...so smart
really funny night...and enjoyable
lots of laught and then we 谈真心话 somemore...

The last day on the way home...we went to the Water Park
its SO SO small....not that fun at all
the fun one was the U-slide and the rubber jump jump thing...
the U-slide damn freaky!!!!slide down that time is almost 90degress down leh!!!
i got a shock when i came down the slide...SHOCK!!!!
than the rubber jump jump thing is the rubber ballon thing with ropes attached,
than we must climb up the ballon using the ropes...but quite hard coz got water constantly flowing..
damn funny...we all keep pulling and kicking and grabbing ppl down the ballon and slide down....i got kicked and pulled down everytime i went up...so tough man...

Well..we reached school at about 10pm...took pictures and said good bye(I ddint feel sad..coz i senior 2 already said our goodbyes...)
than i and 4 others stayed over at CK's house...went mamak and crap until around 1am
than went to his home and the 6 of us started talking
at about 3am...only 4 ppl left talking...the other 2 sleep liao
we kept on talkin until 5am++ than could not tahan liao....so went to sleep lol
than 10am i went back home liao....so tired~~~

It was "FUN" enough...too bad no snorkling!!!
And finally my internet back liao
it went dead for more than a week because of the lightning
so now watching TONS of shows!!!!so happy
apa pun tengok...japanese dramas and animes and variety shows....

Oh well...now relax lol....just waiting for SAM results ...
2morow going to IMU to check it out
haiz...my future is so dim~~~~
anyways...happy holidays!!!

No stress at all!!!!

2008-11-16T15:55:00.004+08:00

WOOHOHOHOHOHO
holiday now
first time in months that there are no worries wat so ever on my mind
yesterday during dinner with my family in pyramid,
i tried to think whether there is anything to do for this whole holiday...
and my brain was like :blank...no info
i was so happy...its been a long time since my brain was free from worrying about anything at all!!!!
on the 12th of Nov,
i went to hin hua's prom nite at tai thong,
i got to say it was fun
SO many of my old frens that i didnt see in a long long time...had real fun with them all....a great night

Today went to IKEA ...OMG,was still so happy that i could slowly walk around...not like last time must rush coz must get back home to do homework or study!!!WAKAKAKA
and i;m not going to Taylors prom night ,i really wanted to go...but during the last weeks study leave...i got so much time to myself that i started thinking:why the heck do i want to go to that prom...So damn tired!!!!
oh well,so i decided to sell my ticket...i went around pasting papers around taylors trying to sell my ticket...i really thought no one would buy it...but just 5 hours later,someone called and was interested to buy it for rm100(it was originally rm120...oh well wat the heck...at least i get back rm 100 rite?)ya..i sold it on the next day...so happy!!!!...so no need to waste time thinking wat to wear or must trouble myself to put on make up and dress up...WAHAHAHA!!!no worries at all this whole week.

So next week,i'm goin out with my pals to JJ again...than on wed(suppose to be goin to prom...but i'm not going now!!!WAHAHAHAH),might go out with frens again or do Spa....see how it goes....than on Thurs...leaving for Langkawi with my high school pals !!!so excited...but i'm going to be dark when i get back.....darn!!!!
than after a week after that...i'm going overseas!!!wakakakkakaak.....

So this holiday is the BEST!!!especially after doing SAM program....what a horrible program....sob sob...well its not tat bad ...its just diffrent....
HAHAHAHA!!!!!so happy...just watch show,go out with my family and friends....hahaha,what else can i ask for
SAM results should be out before Christmas...than only i must like look for Universities and all that...but i'm real psych to go to U...i can start anew and meet new people...and maybe be involve in a club or two(could not join any in taylors...so darn busy and the club timing always changes!!!)
plus Christmas...my fav festival...WAHAHAHA....food food food and the cheery atmosphere....than must decorate my house with christmas trees and glittery stars and bells.....wooohooo....DECORATION SHOPPING HERE I COME!!!!

Oh well....so happy happy happy!!!!!all my nightmares and troubles are gone...now its just relaxing and enjoying every minute of the day!!!!!!HAPPY-ING

-Me during SAM exam...so wanted to die!!!!hahaha,actually it wasn't THAT bad...but it was bad enough to make you cry...at least its all over now!!!-

New shows~~~~

2008-11-15T08:57:00.019+08:00

YEP
its only been like few days before school ended,but i already started seeing lots of shows!!!!wakakakkka
here are some of the shows i started watching:

-Papa to Musume no Nanokakan
Daughter and Father swithched bodies!!!!!ya i know...this story has been done before...but its an 'ok' show....quite funny and the dad is darn hilarious when he acts like his daughter~~~and i love the actress GAKI!!!darn pretty>.< But i've seen this kind of story like alot of times...so i found myself keep on fast forwarding...oh well...
Ratings~~5.5/10

-Innocent Love
The only reason i started this show was because of the actress Maki...she has acted in hana kimi and nobuta before...The story is about a girl, Kao whos brother was wrongly accused to had murdered their parents...Kao,the only person who knew he didn't do it,moved to the city to find a lawyer to help them. While in the city,she met a special someone,who would change her live forever...haha,sounds like the same old love story destiny kind of love story right...but its more complicated than tat with a bit of twist here and there...I'm quite suprise that the story is fairly good...well,going to keep an eye on this show
Rating~~7/10

-GiraGira
A story about a retired host that entered the host world once more because he lost his day job,but he must keep this secret from his wife and daughter...i've watched about 4 episodes and it is really funny and intresting...worth it!!!
Rating~8.5/10

-Bloody Monday
A high school kid who is a genius hacker...he aids the police force in stopping a russion union in releasing a virus~Bloody X among Tokyo which would wipe out millions of ppl if the virus is spread...
Really intresting and exciting...lots of action and the main guy is a DAMN good hacker...so cool!!!
Rating~8/10

-Bethoven Virus
Funny.....plus it has music elements in it...
Its about a 40-ish conductor tat was really popular last time(bad bad bad attitude,self-righteous and stubborn,he demands only good music and will do ANYTHING to get good music )...he was hired to be a conductor for a town own-self formed ochestra...and all the musicians are not pros but only normal residents of the town.So as u can imagine what that stubborn conductor will say about this ochestra(since what they play isn't too pleasing to the year)...Its quite touching...telling the viewers that if you love something and put your heart and soul into it,no matter if you are a Pro or just a normal person,you still can achieve your dream .there are some romance elements mixed inside and some of the characters are darn hilarious...really fun show to watch>.<
Rating~~8/10

And I'm SOOO waiting for this K-drama now!!!
It'll only be out in Dec

-Kgotboda Namja / Boys Before Flowers
Yep, its the korean version of hana yori dango...and i'm so so excited about it.
I loved the other taiwanese and japanese versions...BUT,the taiwanese one was a tiny bit low budget...so its not so glamourous(domyoji's (dao ming shi)house was a golf club!!!like why can't they find a proper huge house...Oh,and in his HUGE house,there's like only 3 maids,and one butler...YA...we just need this 4 guys to manage the HUGE golf club)
and as for the japanese version...its TOO rush...so you can't see much "LOVE" btw the two main characters because it was so rushed (plus domyoji looks NOTHING like the domyiji from the comic...kind of found him irritating ...)
BUT,the korean version's stars are HECK hot!!!all the characters looks like their exactly from the manga....AND it has a REALLY big huge budget to produce this show...so there will be so so GLAMOUROUS!!!!and i like the actress who is playing the main gal...saw her acting before...and it was really good...and shes so CUTE~~so want to pinch her cheeks>.<
awating this show>.< kYAaAa!!!!!!
even its not out but wat the heck with the rating
Rating~10/10....WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Free as a ...

2008-11-13T09:40:00.002+08:00

WOOOWSOOSOSOOSHOHOHOHO
Exam is over~~~~no feel of excitement yet but i don have to study
until next year
wahahaha

yesterday was hin hua's prom
lots of old frens i haven't seen for about a year there~~~
really miss them
great fun...but i could not be HIGH
coz it was the last day of exam...and the nite before i barely slept for around 3 hours...so tired...
but overall it was intresting to see everyone look so so pretty...and handsome!!!

well holiday is here...
i have no plan wat i should do
well,lets make a list wat i should do...

-watch 家好月圆
-Play the game "Little big planet" on PS
-Read 可爱淘's novels
-watch as much korean and japanese dramas online
-Go out with my friends before they go overseas next year
-Exercise (ya rite!)
-Go shopping
-Manage my photo albums
-Clean up my room...sigh
-Borrow comics
-Change of hairstyle
-Improve my Canto
-Sleep more
-and MAYBE start playing SIMS 2 again...

well...i only have about a month and a half before i need to go to University(the courses i'm intrested mostly starts either in Jan or Feb...darn...why so soon!)
i haven't decided where i'm going to yet...must wait for my results before i can
decide
But one things sure
i NEED to get out of this country...so maybe going Aus or Eng?hoho hopefully~~~~

Freedom is NEAR!!!!

2008-11-04T19:39:00.002+08:00

Exam week now
sigh....so tired
well ,at least Physics is over...my most hated subject
so now theres maths bio and chem
double sigh
well....freedom is near
i can smell it
wahahaha
shows shows shows
games games games
why are all the good shows and games comin out tis few weeks...
so wanna c it...
i want want want!!!!
well...
gambateh!!!
pray hard,study hard,
the battle aint over yet

Tearful end

2008-10-24T18:08:00.003+08:00

today was the last day of college
and of coz....the last day we could call ourselves G12!!!!

No FEELINGS watsoever in the morning
i felt like "oh,the last day...ok fine"
because as u all know...i didnt really enjoy this year
so i thought ending this year would not be that hard

So we had everyone taking pictures,signing goodbye messages...
we even went to the HUGE taylors sign outside to take pics
so many pple were like "wat the hell are those students doing!!!!"
Lots of fun taking pics and signing

But the tearful event happened during Chemistry period
we all went outside class to take photos...and i mean CRAZILY taking pics
we all had weird ,funny and "wat the heck are u doing" expressions!!!
such dramatic class rite...

than we started saying: "tis will be our last time standing here"
or "I guess we will not use this classroom anymore" etc...
Well, my heart started to sank...
Truthfully i HATED this year, because i experience everything from pain, jealousy ,loneliness,misunderstandings,hurtful comments and all that stuff than are suppose to make you grow up...
But when i heard the word "LAST" ...i could not help feeling sad...

When we were signing and taking photos with each other...we would jokingly say "i'm going to cry...this is the last time"... and make sad faces...
but towards the end of the day...we were all really like so down...and really was going to cry...

than when we were taking individual photos with our mentor Pn Mahani...she started tearing up and crying...
It than struck me!!! DAMN...this is the last day i would actually see all of them!!!
I mean the seating for the final exams are based on our registration number
so ALL of us will be at different venues ...thus we can't really c each other
Plus not all of us will be going to the prom,
and some will be going overseas soon,
So...it really was the LAST day...

Than I started tearing up too...
memories of the good times I had with my classmates started flashing in my mind
all the lame jokes ,when we helped each other...when we played together...
MY GOD...i was SO sad!!!!
than all the galz around started tearing up too...
than Pn Mahani started to give a speech
saying that it was a great year..and that she will not forget us
Than i seriously started crying
coz i really really like Pn Mahani
she was the GREATEST teacher i ever had
she was caring...and always there to give us encouragements...
i still remembered wat she told us
"TRY YOUR BEST, AND NEVER LOOK BACK!!!"
i mean, she was funny and really a great person
and i've seen her everyday in college
and now...we'll going to go our ways!!!

After the speech...the WHOLE class was all depress
lots of pple started to cry
and than we all hugged each other and exchanged good lucks
MY GOD!!!! the hugging was torture!!!!
I WAS SO SO SAD when i hugged all of them
it was like the last time i will ever touch them or see them again
i mean....a hug is the greatest gift rite
but this felt it was the LAST gift i can ever give to my classmates
than some whispered to me "take care", "always be happy","i'm so happy to have met you" and other heart breaking words you say when you go your ways...
AHHH!!!!!i cried like crazy...
when i hugged them...i seriously didn't want to let go
really heart brokin!!!
than when we were going home ,all of us had red swallowed eyes
and the other classes were like
"OMG,they even cried!!!"...and really
our class was like the only SAM class that cried like babies...

we than all (Mok,jocin,ting,phui,banana)went to pyramid to KTV...
and we really had fun...
going to miss them lah
really sad WEI!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Even though it was a tough year...
but i got to say i've grown up a lot because of this course
met a lot of diff kind of ppl
and i've experience hardship...but friendship too
G12 is today officially "DISMISSED"
Wish luck to all you guys...and to me as well

Keep in touch!!!
love ya~~~~

OH YA!!!!

2008-10-05T20:02:00.003+08:00

DAMNIT!!!!
the raya holiday is over
tat means college starts 2morow
GRRRrrRRRRrrrRrr~~~~~

Oh well,at least only 3 more weeks of classes!!!
than sayonara college life!!!
WAKAKAKA!!!!

to tell the truth, i dislike tis year ALOT!!!
This is because it thought me too much lessons on life.
i met all kinds of ppl...some kind some HORRIBLE!!!!
and i cried alot tis year because of those HORRIBLE ppl
But i can't blame too much on other pple
in the end,the fault still falls on me
being selfish, timid and "innocent"(ya rite~~~)

Here are lessons i learned tis year in college:
1) You can't be friends with everyone!!!
2) There really are assholes in this world(not only in shows)
3) You can't depend on other people, you must do it yourself!!!
4) Stand up for who you are, don't follow the flow!!!
5) Horrible,horrible,horrible love stories of other ppl~~~~eiks!!!(seriously)

And the most important of all!!!!
>>>Be who you are from the very beginning !!!!Coz you will regret it later when you come to your senses!!! do not!!!and i mean do not hide your real self....or else you will suffer the worst pain in your gut like ever!!!

oh well....this year has been pretty interesting... but not all in a good way.
but overall...i met some great pple...and i've learned to not be SO selfish and selfcentred ~~~~~yep yep

oh well...time to study again...the goddamn same syllabus again~~~sob sob...
but for some reason....i'm not nervous that finals are comin...but i'm somewhat excited that it is finally approaching !!!!haha
Its not that i'm over confident...but happy that i'm reaching my goal~~~woohoo
plus there are LOTS of GREAT japanese and korean dramas comin at the end of the year!!!haha

But than again...some of my friends will be leaving soon once the finals are over...
well,quite sad about that...
and i need to decide wat University i want to go to nxt year too
damn!!!what do i want to be in life lah!!!!!!
maybe becomin an actress!!!hahaha(totally dreamin...sigh)
or maybe just "fish up" a rich boy and get married(again, dreamin)
Oh well...only God will know what is in store for me...

WELL!!!GAMBATEH lol
it has been a great one week holiday lol
lots of time to catch up on korean and japanese variety shows...kakaka
and lots of time to myself~~~wooohoo
2morow is again a new day!!!!!

GO GO GO!!!!!!!
good luck to me arrrrrrrrr!!!!

So unfair....

2008-09-14T09:49:00.002+08:00

Planning,Hoping,Dreaming,Making
Whats the damn use of doing all this
I feel wasted, Angry and Unfair
Always Always Always.....
when the one most time i didnt want to feel that way
It happened

Laughing at me rite
Why am i So stupid...
I want to run away from all this
it is just too unfair
no matter what i do or try
it does not matter rite?
because everything will not be wat i've imagined
and it will never be!

What's the damn use
u all will never understand
when i wanted to break down
no one will be there but me
so unfair but true
so true but unfair

Everything i was hoping for so long
became tears just because....
so unfair
SO UNFAIR!!!!!

Wow~~~~slow down mate

2008-09-11T15:54:00.002+08:00

Yep...trials is comin
another painful week and a half left

FREAKIN!!!!i have not finish my revision yet
worse...i have not started on maths and physics yet...
GrrRRrrrRrrrr.....so going to panic and faint now...

Anywho...the good news is that after trials...there will be a one week break
than after that....Finals....O_Olll

grrrr.....than after that University hunting...
than after 2 years than overseas(hopefully)
than after another 1 or 2 years....
Job hunting

WOWOWOWOWO.....slow down mate
this is SO unfair
why is time so much faster when i'm older
God....come to think of it
another 2 years and i won't be a TEENager anymore
Damn....and i already got my drivin lisences too
WOOWOWOWOWOWO....
i can feel my skin getting loose and old....my eyes havin wrinkles

GAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!So unfair

The Truth...

2008-09-07T19:28:00.002+08:00

Seriously life can SUCK...
Hoping and Dreaming are really a waste of time isnt it
More Friends,More Fun,More laughter,More memories
But what i got was disappointment ,sadness and tears.

Do you call this innocence or just plain dumb?
Do you call this bad luck or just reality?
Do you call this unfair or just truth?

I was so loss, so hurt , and so confused at the beginning...
I could not understand why were there GROUPS and SELFISHNESS?
I could not understand why there were hurtful words and gestures?
We were suppose to be one, but i guess we were just forced to...

I was so innocent and stupid
i thought if i acted nicer or FAKE
everything will be ok and fine...
It did get better....but it all shattered and crumbled down before i could enjoy it
Joy and laughter turned into hatred and anger
i felt so restless....so confused...

Life turned into a burden
Everyday turned into a chore
Joy turned into tears
Dreams turned into dust

I guess this is the real world
where backstabbing ,fear and awfulness exist.
I miss the past....where everything was so simple...so elegant...
Where trust and friendship coexist
Where BONDS were not so easily broken
Where Forgiveness were possible
Where Hatred can be put aside...

When i was hurt...no one believed me
When i was loved...they all disappeared
When i was happy...no one understood

Just a little longer...and i will be free
Just a little longer...

LOSS calculator

2008-08-15T18:12:00.002+08:00

MY GOD....i thought students of taylors will be well off enought to aford their calculators.....i'm damn wrong

shit!my blue calculator is missing....some one must have stolen it when i went to the library....damn it!!!!rm210 leh....i wanted to sell it nxt year somemore ....damn!!!!

man....and somemore its the holidays now...i need it to study leh....shit shit shit
lucky i still have my bro's old model calculator....where my last maths teacher said was TOO old...watever lah....i just need a freakin calculator!!!!

damn u the guy who stole my calculator
i hope u will get a bad flu...backache...headache....stomachache....fever and rashers when u use my calculator....
and get REALLY bad results when u use my calculator...
damn u!!!!!

Hello new bloggy~~~~~~

2008-08-14T18:20:00.005+08:00

hmmmm...decided to start a new blog....have no idea why
but i still sometimes post in my msnlive blog....but it has its drawbacks....coz its soo sooo messy now.....

well here is the new opening of my new blog!!!!
wooohooooo

my old blog's add is sharon4hanabi.spaces.live.com
it has all my memories since 2007
i didn't want to like lose my sweet and bitter memories
so i pasted some of the memories here
but go to my old blog..lots of cool stuff
haha

Old post:

January 22

学院啊~~~~
这几天都蛮DOWN的....很MISS高中哦....
班上情况算是还好...可是感情还没那么GOOD咯...
很怪啊...班上每个人都讲CHINESE的...很不好啦酱...
ANYWAY...希望会进步拉.....DAMN

加油啦.......兴华I MISS YOU!!!!
5:31 PM

January 16
学院啊~~~~
我是学院生了!!!!不懂该开心或伤心呢...
我很幸运能跟HUI和TING在同一班...之少有朋友配吧...
开学的那一两个星期,我真的还蛮DOWN的...因为没什么认识人,而且不熟悉那地方呀..
而且我那星期又回了兴华看朋友们...看到他们,我真的很伤心,因为没办法跟他们一起渡过这一年...
他们还是老样子...就是那么可爱...真的很MISS他们呢.....
在兴华走来走去,真的是觉得很伤心...兴华是我这11年来的2ND家呀...
食堂旁的那棵树,是我小学每次去它那旁边坐的...而且还帮了它取名呀...JOHNSON树树...
花园的那角落,是我们这几个女生的讲话地方...
教学大楼7TH FLOOR,是我们在SPM TUITION时的乐园....
那难看又容易脏的白校服没机会穿了,
心里真的很空荡地哦~~~~上车时就偷偷哭泣了哦....很MISS 呢

很多人都讲我很笨,为什么不继续读什么什么的,
为什么当初没读国中....
可是我不后悔读兴华,不后悔离开呀...
兴华也许比较贵,比较难,BUT我有机会遇到那么多朋友...而且至少会想恋我高中那生活呀...
不象我BROTHERS,讨厌死他们的国中...没什么MISS他们高中生活...
离开呢...也许伤心啊,有觉得点浪费没读高三...BUT我很确定我在TAYLORS读,未来会跟BRIGHT的...HEHE
而且,我现在每天几乎都有读书,做功课呢~~以前在兴华都没做...
上课又很静...LECTURER又很PRO...FACILITIES又好
又可以MEET可姿可样的人呢....而且比较FREE...每天午餐又丰富...WAHAHA

不管怎样...今年我们一定要加油!!!!
我SAM拿85/100!!!而你们统考拿TOP TOP TOP!!!!!
GO 2008!!!!!!

4:24 PM

December 28
爱之日本~~~
前一星期到了日本旅游....很GENG啊那边!!!
日本人超级FRIENDLY的,CASHIER什么人都会对你微笑,而且会算出来给你听的哦,来避免换错钱啦...
去SHOPPINGMALL OR HOTEL,什么工作人员都会跟你问好的,连那些洗厕所都会很开心的说OHAIYOGOZAIMAZU,然后对你微笑.
哇,那象MALAYSIA的,连CASHIER都不会看你的...笑一下都会死酱!

而且那儿的人很信赖客人的,那些SHOPS,都没有什么SECURITY的,所以要偷东西很简单!
好像我到DISNEYLAND的一个娃娃SHOP,那儿超多人,而且门口附近也放了娃娃,
所以要偷东西很容易,AND没有人会注意到,COZ太多人急来急去了.
BUT那些买东西的日本人都很很很有纪律的排队付钱...他们不可能去偷的!!!
如果MALAYSIA有酱的SHOP,那些SHOP都被偷完了@!!!!
塔BUS OR TRAIN,他们都会排队,不会JUMP Q 的...
DISNEYLAND时完全没看到人插队...那象GENTING哦!!!

那些日本人真的太POLITE了!!!!完全跟MALAYSIA相反!!!!
我看到一个年轻人啊,盯很多耳洞,而且染一头金发..看起来很PAI-GIA...
可是我看到他对着一个问路的老婆婆讲话SO POLITE哦!!!!而且还带路哦!!!!而且一直笑啊笑啊!!!
WALAO!!!SHOCK!!!

我也爱上日本TOILET呢...SO 先进!!!!很多酷FUNCTION哦!!!而且那个TOILET SEAT有温度的哦,SO坐下时温柔地!!!!
AND 很很干净...洗手的,SOAP什么的都AUTOMATIC的....WALAO!!!
而且日本街上是不可能看到垃圾的!!!!哇,他们好干净哦.....

可是我发现的是,日本好多好多COUPLE哦!!!不管去那里,都可以看到COUPLE手牵手走呢~~~~而且那些COUPLE都是LENGZAI LENGLUI哦!!!
真的很喜欢那儿女生的FASHION,很LADYLIKE呢....可是有些就很OVER啦...温度4度还穿超MINI SKIRT,SO GENG.
那边的男生发型SO COOL!!!!!什么颜色都有,AND SO BIG,SPIKY 什么都有...
可是一些真的太LENG了啦那些发型...可惜MALAYSIA男生做不到那些发型(这里太热了!!!SO应该做那些发型会热死你)

HMMMM.....日本真的很好玩...有机会你们一定要去咯!!!!
可是我回来时...真的是SHOCK了几天,COZ这里人的态度跟日本的差太多了!!!!
尤其是回来KLIA那天..WALAO,KLIA的CASHIER态度也酱烂!!!!SHIT...
听好哦,是KLIA咯...很多外国人会来的地方,工作人员态度还那么#$&#$&(!!!!!
WALAO,那个CASHIER脸黑黑的,好象我们这些客人在麻烦他
而且他算错钱还不SAY SORRY,还很不爽的样子...
速度还慢到猪样....而且我前面那客人是台湾人,SO不明白ENGLISH...
那CASHIER要求BOARDING PASS,可是那客人不明白...所以在那呆掉...
哇!那CASHIER就生气了哦!!一直很不爽重负SAY BOARDING PASS BOARDING PASS...
到最后,那客人就明白了....就拿出来....THEN,给MONEY时,那客人COZ不是很懂MALAYSIA MONEY
所以慢慢的一张一张那出来...哇,那CASHIER的脸又变了...好象在表示这客人很麻烦....

AHHHH!!!!!SO SAD....我MISS日本的那些人哦!!!!!!!!
6:46 PM

December 06
伤心啊伤心...
昨天一整天在清理我房间...哇,够脏呀!!我的窗帘洗的时候够黑啊那水...
书柜什么的都有一层厚厚的灰...够恶心了呀...
整理时找到好多初一到高二的课本....
很多都是以前不敢堆掉的,因为以为考UEC时会用到...
一本一本的往箱子里堆...一些要卖给学妹们,一些就OLD NEWSPAPER了,一些收下来当MEMORY
HAIZ....还蛮心痛的....
我也在一些课本里头找到以前在兴华拍的照片...啊....好伤心哦哦~~~~

打扫了5小时之后,书柜就那么的空了...以前还塞满SPM书,习作,课本,作业簿...HAIZ...
我也收集了两大包的废纸...卖掉应该能拿到RM4++吧...

现在很多同学去旅行了呀...台湾,中国,香港等等等......
还满羡慕他们酱早去....COZ现在整天都在家里增肥罢了....SO DANGEROUS...
可是我下星期就要跟我好姐妹去GENTING了呀,三天两夜呢....很期待呀!!!因为没跟朋友一起去过....>.<
BUT,现在还是没搞定那BUS呀...真是烦恼....

去GENTING再过一星期就跟家人到日本了呀...又期待了...
那时去一定很冷的呀!!!!爽!!!!!

可是回国不到ONE WEEK 就开学了=_=""
SO FAST....BUT一样很期待啦....因为可以穿便服了...HEHE
而且可以自称是"学院"的学生了....是不是比较HIGH CLASS一点点呢???HEHE

期待期待期待!!!!!

3:02 PM

December 04
Hello life...
SPM完了啊!!!!哈哈哈....
不久就跟朋友去GENTING三天二夜了...
19号也要去日本了....太爽了HOH....

前几天到了TAYLORS报名...那边还不错呢...那边人也蛮FRIENDLY的哦~~~
今天就是在兴华的最后一天...但是没什么很伤心呢...奇怪...

明年就要开始新生活了...我一定要变成TOP STUDENT 了!!!!!!
就这样我高中生活就结束了...很不舍...BUT WAT CAN I DO咯....

兴华的朋友们,加油考你们的统考咯...有PARTY时要叫我咯,有什么事情也告诉我咯...
记得还有我这个人哦...HEHE...加油哦!!!!!!

4/12/2007~~~在兴华的LAST DAY(1H,2H,3H,4J,5J,6T,J1T,J2T,J3H,S1SF,S2SF)=11 amazing yearsV>.
4:46 PM

November 30

未来的交叉路...
SPM完了(CHINESE ONLY LEFT)...回到家就被开导了一下...
家人问了我确定要离开学校...确定SPM能过关...
我却答不出来..SPM我做到怎样,我都不懂...到最后,被他们骂了一顿...
如果我去COLLEDGE的话,我就要确定我SPM很好,IF NOT,会被踢出去...
踢出去后就是三月了,兴华不可能受我了,而且没COLLEDGE读...这样的话,我的未来不是被毁灭了?
SPM做到如何我没信心讲....

我今天拿了TRIAL RESULTS...
哇!!PHYSICS ADD MATHS CHEMISTRY都烂到不行...可是我确定我PHYSICS一定能及格的呀..为何会酱?
问了教务处的老师DOUBLE CHECK,他说没错....而且我们都没拿回考卷...所以没证据说PHYSICS及格...

回家给了家人看...没骂我,可是讲了为何我连SPM都能考到酱???
我及选择了读TAYLORS...可是我SPM...
回到家就大哭了,把TRIAL RESULTS揉成一团丢到抽屉里...
现在后悔了...后悔了...为什么没好好专注在SPM上...
记得以前很有信心MATHS考A,那儿知道考了一个D出来...
OVER CONFIDENTS 罢...那时哭得也满够力
如果SPM这次也酱,如果真的是不行...那会被COLLEGE踢出来...那时我该怎么办?做工?回兴华?

UEC我没兴趣读...可是是一条很安全的路...至少会毕业呀!!!!
这几天都睡不好...还在考虑我该怎么办...
该做什么...现在太迟了....后悔了,后悔了!!!!!!
为什么我酱笨,不象我哥们...SPM拿7-9A..爸妈没担心过他们...因为知道他们一定会成功..
我呢??爸爸还说他每天都为我祈祷呢........是的,我就是那么的没用...没出息的家伙...
现在能怎样...跟我说...现在能怎样?

8:16 PM

June 24

又吵翻天了...我们的班
又来了又来了...又开那种会议...那种让人烦恼的会议....

又是一样的问题....老师和学生的关系问题,学生上课的情况....
那天,真的吵翻天了,吵到我忍不住哭了...我也不懂为什么我会那么脆弱...
看到先惠哭的时候,我眼筐就满了泪水....可是不懂为何我不久也哭了...真是丢脸....

我也许跟先惠的想法一样...就是很失望.....可是我也对我自己失望...
我开始哭时,脑海里一直想着去年去ECO PARK的那回忆,
那时,我们真的认识了彼此,回来后,我们真的好FRIEND哦...很吵哦..
而且,去年年尾的时候好爽...每个人凭着读书,互相问,合作...一起努力...
那时,还蛮爽的...真的好开心在这班.....可是...AHYO

问题又来了,我以为去年所发生的'恶梦'已结束了....但是...
今年.....
HAIZ.....我好累,我身边的一些朋友也好累....
为什么一些小小的问题要搞到将大呢?????

好像步操....一些同学真的弄到我火了起来....
为什么不能合作一点,不要我顶一句,你顶一句,,,
很浪费时间.....又不好笑!!!!!

我们班就是有这习惯,一直顶,顶到不会停....
我们班....真的不会观察人家的脸色...

JEREJAK的那件事....SHIT,要搞酱大么!!!!!
我那时很气....为什么就不合作一点就得了...
很后悔去JEREJAK!!!!!我的$$啊!!!

老师的问题....HAIZ...不懂怎样讲....
我不是很讨厌她,可是....她不会听我们的意见,我们的想法罢了....

我们的班...真的没有目标吗!!!
我们是高二了...不是高一...不能一直玩罢了...
不要一直放松自己,你们应该有人生目标吧!!!
一起努力啊...你们懂那种感觉有多爽啊...
一起努力向前走,一起努力达到目标,一起创造美丽的回忆...
你们懂我多期望我们可以一起努力吗???我很很很爱我们班...进这一班,我一点也不后悔...

我真的好累,很累我们一直重复这种不愉快的东西...
S2SF有47个人,不可能多,也不可能少...
同学们,一起努力...你们真的不要跟我创造美好的高二回忆吗....
你们可以给我一点期望吗????

考试要到了,我们高中的生活不久也要结束了...
我很希望有一个美好的高中回忆...
请你们合作吧...一起达到目标...

5:46 PM

October 18

找到了朋友的定义...
上个月,淑珍问了我一个问题:朋友的定义是什么?...我那时却想不到...
可是,今天我终于找到了那个定义,朋友的定义...

有些人发现我最近很不耐烦...心情烂到不懂怎样形容...
一时38,一时不爽...很容易生气...
有时不想讲话...对人家冷淡...
我也不懂我为什么会这样...
也许是考试的压力...或者是其它事情...我搞不懂....

今天心情蛮好的...可是,到下午的时候,整个人都烦了起来...
放学了,跟一班好朋友去吃乱乱炒...讲得很开心,玩得很开心...心情好了一些
上SPM课时,我又烦了...不懂为何,很想哭出来...
先慧他们约了我去后面玩,可是,我很不爽,不想动...
所以,静静的坐在那儿...抄功课...
不久,先慧又回来约我去后面...可是,我心情烂到不想讲话,所以又拒绝...

她走了后,我静静的一个人坐在那儿...真的很烦,不舒服...好想哭...
抄功课到一半时,眼泪开始流了下来..心好乱,脑一时充满了问题...
擦掉眼泪,小声的对我自己"不要紧,不要哭"...可是,我那时好乱好乱...一直用力的擦掉眼泪
突然间,涌鑫般了桌子到我旁边,说:HIHI,我来配你了...(他其实是配他团员的...)
我提起精神说:你那么好MEH...
我们谈了一回,他那种'自恋'态度弄了我提起精神...他然后又给了我糖果,逗我开心...

过了不久,哲婷叫了我坐后面...可是我是不想动的,因为我还是不想什么讲话...
所以我拒绝了...可是又过了不久,菱芊他们又叫了我去后面...我就走到后面坐了...
一开始,我是不是很想讲话的...只是做着那边,勉强的微笑...
可是,他们有那种让你38的力量,所以我开始38了起来..跟他们讲话了...
我那时,烦恼全部被DELETE掉了...很开心...很轻松...

我回到家时,心情很好...好到我能飞起来哦...
开始用电脑了,坐下来的时候,眼泪又要流了下来,
这一次不是因为我难过,而是我太感动了...
我发现到,我真的有一班很好很好的朋友...
只要我跟他们在一起的时候,我不用假装了...
我所烦恼的问题...可以忘掉...
我现在好感动好感动...
很感谢神给了我那么好的朋友们...

做朋友的定义非常简单,
只要你们在一起时,你可以不用假装,
可以做你自己,可以那么的轻松的,快乐的...能相信一起的...

真的很感谢你们...这些朋友...
我这几天都很烦,很痛苦...
可是但能跟你们在一起时,我每次都很开心
.................

谢谢了...朋友

9:13 PM