Sometimes...if only...

Sometimes...i wish i was
more braver...
...more smarter...more better
...more worthy...

Sometimes i question myself...
what am I doing here...am I worthy enough?
Can i handle it?am i good enough...

Looking around me
Everyone is so intimidating
so much more stronger, wiser, better...

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Yes, my life is so bless...
I am so so so happy that God had always given me strength when i needed it
and
providing me with love and comfort when I wanted to give up...

but...i guess its because I'm so caught up with my busy life
then I started to stray away....even in church, during CFs...I feel...empty...
my brain keeps on replaying on the schedule i should accomplish for tat day...
I now don't even pray everyday...which is just really sad and ungrateful...

Just came across a christian song on one of my friend's blog that made me thinking...
what am i doing with my life now...
yes its all fun and fulfilling...but somehow its not 'complete'...
somehow it makes me think...am i doing enough...
and theres all this
regret...doubt...
not feeling good enough thought...
constantly running through my mind

BUT

I must get up and run again
no self-pityness...no more 'oh i'm too busy' excuse anymore...
yes,i must get back in the race
just trust and have faith again
don't be destracted and stop by what flashes pass you
don't look behind to see if you are good enough
Just face the front...and do your best...
Don't compare...or feel not good enough
just
enjoy the brief but beautiful sceneries flashes pass you....
the cool breeze...
the tiggling sensation of the sun's heat...
yes...have Faith....I miss that feeling...

This is not only the path I have chosen...but also the path I AM suppose to take
no matter what
......i just got to get back in the race
no more distractions.......

GOT IT SHARON!!!!!!!!!!!!