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real personalities

"How could people like those have friends" I thought furiously when i saw them treating other ppl like rubbish,saying thoughtless hurtful comments,lying like their life depended on it and just doing things to their "friends" that I just can't accept....and the worse part is their "friends" just took it all in and just treated it like part and parcel of life....what has the world come to...

Am i just to narrow minded...do i not see the good but only look at the bad???but...but How could their friends just take the insults???just laugh at all the hurtful jokes pointed at them in public...just be used and than thrown out...just to be constanly look down at and just smile and say 'its nothing,i'm used to it'...it just does not make any sense...

Maybe they see good things in those assholes that they stay friends with them and just take it all in...but,how can they just 'tahan'...
i can never find myself even being 'superficial friends' with those jerks...i'll never throw out my dignity JUST to be friends with them ...i mean...is that what FRIENDS are???

why why why......feeling disgusted...urghhhhhsss~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

explosive~~~

urghss....EMO-ing now...
I can't tell what made me so emo
i mean everything is going fine,no sad events,no stress YET,no problems...
than why d emoness now...

For some weird strange bizzare out of this world reason...
i burst into tears when i was talking to the nurses in my uni...coz they didnt allow me to go to this one class...
i mean its not like a SAD case...in the past IF i could not attend than nevermind lar...i mean the class is not THAT important that i will DIE if i didn't attend...
but weird thing is i started breaking down...and now ALL the nurses know me as that girl who cried becoz of some tiny problem....aiks
damn paiseh man...

but seriously....why did i tear up
why did i whimper on such small matter...
my heart hurt,i was sad...but i can't think of any reason why??
was i sad i could not attend the class? NO i was NOT...at ALL
was i sad coz i was told off by the nurse? NO i was NOT...i don't break down so easily
was i sad of some past events that i suddenly remember during that moment? Maybe...but i don't remember what was it...so...why why why!!!!

I'm seriously freaking out...
i cried...for no apparent reason...AT ALL
am i ok...what's wrong with me...

really hope no one remembers me as that crying girl when i meet the nurse again>.<
weird~~~~~

It's time to be....

Well,Its been a great semester ...had lots of fun and been keeping myself busy...
BUT, I seriously must start studying like mad now...since my exam is only a month away...I've been slacking off way too much...eventhough I told myself I must work my ass off this year...urgh...

This sem is said to be the MOST important sem for students who are twinnig to Partner Medical Schools(PMS)...like me.
Because our Sem 3 results will be used to Rank us...and than this will decide if the Universities we chose will choose us...by our ranking...
With that said...its like my future will be decided through this semester...*stressing*

I heard the worst Semester for us was Semester 2...which to me was a wake up call last year...
I broke down,i paniced,i cried,i burned out and almost had a heart attack preparing for my Sem 2 exams...It was the WORST experience I ever had...feeling so unprepared,so vulnerable, so stupid...felt like CRAP!!!
But thank God that i survived last year...really really thankful...

But...i feel the worst Semester will be this Sem...which is Sem 3...Because it's one of the LONGEST sem out of the 5 semesters...
it is 6 months long...with only a one week break for Chinese New Year...and we need to learn about 4 Systems (Cardio,Respi,Heamato,GI)...
We will have 2 summatives ,One after every 2 systems...than in July,we will have our End of Semester(EOS) exam...which is....going to be like hell...for 2 weeks long...

Well,no matter what,I will NOT NOT NOT NOT stress myself out EVER again before ANY of the exams...
NEVER AGAIN I want to BREAK DOWN and feel like crap just hours before any of the exams...

Anyways...I am actually enjoying this sem...
and am SOOO happy that I chose Medicine...and AM not regretting it *like last year*...
Medicine is really something amazing...eventhough its a LONG and HARD journey...but its all worth it...i mean,i LOVE it>.<

no matter what,I will fight until the end~~~
happy CNY!!!!!!!!!

Busy Weeks ahead.....LOOK OUT!!!

I"M SO TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!

well,wat i did this pass week or so???

last wednesday woke up at 5am...went to IMU 7am...went to MANTIN clinic at 8.30am...did history taking and looked around the clinic...came back to uni at 12.30pm...had class till 4pm.....reached home at 6pm....

last friday stayed at friend's apartment...had class till 4pm...went Carrefour shopping for dinner goods...had lambchop and mashpotatoes....*yumyum*...watched movie till 1am...slept at 2am...
woke up at 5.30am on Satuday ...went to IMU at 6am...took bus to JINJANG clinic and reached at 8am to help out d Health Screening there...did Health promotion,took patients blood glucose while wearing thick lab coat....sweated like a pig,and sooo tired and HOT!!!!!(coz there were barely any fans in the clinic and i was mostly outside under the hot sun)...came back home at 4pm....went to IKEA with family...came back at 9pm......man....TIRING

man...to tired lar...can't study coz so tired....sigh
this week is going 2 be busy too...pray for me PLEASE

tata~~~~

ohyeah...back to reality

Its been a week since class started...and so far...its tiring...
doing Cardiovascular System now....and its super complex...like OMG complex
and this is just ONE system...i need to get through more than 6 systems by nxt year wei...sighs..
but all in all,its quite fun really....at least this is more intresting than foundation year...

Had my 1st Clinical Skills for Sem3 today...and it was scary...
the Doctor incharged of my group was one of the most strict and demanding one I EVER had...
and it was REALLY scary...
questions after questions after questions...
and all of us had SOOO many akward silence bcoz we didn't know how to answer...
She even said our group was the WORSE group she ever met....plus she looked kinda pissed off....

man...i was really afraid of the Dr...but in a weird way i liked her too...
She asked really relevant questions....so I'm learning ALOT from her
plus she gave me a reality check....
making me realize being a Doctor is NOOO funny bussiness...and we are expected to know EVERYTHING...eventhough we WON"T be tested on in NOW...but somewhere in the future...we WILL surely use it...otherwise how are we going tho help patients if we do not know everything rite...
So...more studying for me...
i HATED feeling SOOOO Stupid and silent during that WHOLE session...urghs...

Wednesday will be going to a clinic in Negeri Sembilan and on Saturday going to help out at Jinjang Clinic for health screening and stuff...really excited!!!going to learn lots of stuff and meet diff ppl there>.<

Well...i'm so tired...but what the heck....its Fun too...but so tired...*zzzZZzZz...*
hopefully i'll still live through this week.....cheers!!!!


~I always love looking at the orange stained sky during Dusk,its so warm,so mesmerizing and it reminds me how beautiful everyday Ends...no matter how bad a day u have...Life is AWESOME man!!!!!!!~